Guest Name:
Chris Boetker
Date:
Thursday, March 7, 2019
Comments:
I knew you from high school and you were a good guy. We talked several times about life and what we were going to do after HS. I can't believe you're gone. Way way too soon my friend. I can say all of us will see you soon.
Rest in piece Caeth.
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Date:
Monday, October 8, 2018
Comments:
Hey Caeth, sometimes time doesn't heal all wounds. Miss you bro. Can't wait till we meet again, to see your huge smile and just philosophize about life.
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Guest Name:
Karri
Date:
Monday, August 27, 2018
Comments:
Happy Heavenly Birthday Caeth.
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Guest Name:
George Templeton
Date:
Sunday, January 7, 2018
Comments:
Just thought about you today Caeth. I pray your family is well.
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Guest Name:
Kimberly Arriaga Lopez
Date:
Saturday, March 25, 2017
Comments:
i wish you were still here cousin. I think about you so much. This sadness just is so hard to shake. I love you and understand that loneliness oh so well. when i see how much Maylie & Butch have grown up, i miss you even more.
All of my love
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Date:
Wednesday, February 22, 2017
Comments:
Think about you often, Caeth. Hope heaven is everything you thought it would be.
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Guest Name:
Mike
Date:
Saturday, July 2, 2016
Comments:
It's been almost 11 years since my last "post"! I still can't listen to " over the rainbow" without thinking about you. Your kids are beautiful and all grown up. Still wonder why!!? I shared this site with a friend tonight that made an absolutely horrible comment about "why she's here". You're gone, but still able to help others without even knowing it or physically being there for them. I don't think missing you will ever change.
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Guest Name:
Dan Malloy
Date:
Wednesday, January 13, 2016
Comments:
Caeth,
I'm reaching out to you in order to gain some sense of understanding. You taught me so much about God's love for us, especially in times of great questioning and misunderstanding. I'm so sorry for your suffering, and especially for not recognizing the importance of, or how to go about, addressing it. Please forgive me. It is helpful to have confidence that you'll be greeting my son Devon with love and understanding. I've always known that you'll look out for others in a way that is beyond inspiring. Please know that your conduit resistance continues to burn as a shining light for we who need to see through the darkness. Thank you, my brother.
In Love & Gratitude,
Dan
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Guest Name:
Date:
Saturday, January 9, 2016
Comments:
It's been awhile now. You run through my thoughts less and less, but your memory is still there and very hardy. Miss you. I miss Joaquin, too.
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Guest Name:
Jake Medina
Date:
Wednesday, April 8, 2015
Comments:
Crazy that it has been 11yr...I think about you often, especially when I see May and Butch. Miss you man!
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Guest Name:
Teddy
Date:
Tuesday, March 24, 2015
Comments:
remembering you...
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Guest Name:
Christian
Date:
Tuesday, April 8, 2014
Comments:
10 years. It's kind of unbelievable that it's been that long. Feels like just the other day we were hanging out. I'll never stop wish you were around to talk to and share with. You brought something unique to my life that will never be replaced. Love you lots.
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Guest Name:
Maria (Renziehausen) Tiburski, mmtibu@freenet.de
Date:
Friday, September 27, 2013
Comments:
..sorry for rambling, must be the shock, but I do want to finish my last thought to his family (-- I got cut off). Caeth was a great guy who influenced so many people. I've missed him and others in CA for years, but now I'm mourning for his kids who can't spend time with him here and now. They can be proud of him for so many things, despite all the pain and questions. He was a blessing to so many of us. I know for sure he's with Christ, happy and healed.
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Guest Name:
Maria (Renziehausen) Tiburski, mmtibu@freenet.de
Date:
Friday, September 27, 2013
Comments:
I can't believe it. Was looking thru my journal from my time in CA (from Germany), got all caught up in memories of my time in Calvary Oceanside and figured I had to get in touch again. Since the Lawrence-Family (mostly Hannah and Dan) and the Gonzales brothers influenced and amazed me the most and I've had contact with Hannah, I decided to check on Joauquin and Caeth -- and am just shocked. To Leah and your kids: the last time I heard from him was the letters we sent to each other about our serious relationships. I was engaged to Matthias at the time, and Caeth was madly in love with "the most beautiful woman in the world, totally in love with Christ". Now I see our kids are the same age... Caeth was just awesome, as everyone knows...When I knew him ('93/'95)he was so devoted to Christ he said he wanted to be like Paul and stay single, to be more focussed on Jesus. (Until Leah, of course...) He was so fun and funny ("Hey, Maria, I speak German, too: ign flgn Fahrvergnügen") -- but lik
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Guest Name:
Meredith Johnson
Date:
Friday, July 26, 2013
Comments:
Thought about you today! I will never forget me going to your house and playing guitar with you and your dad! Your dad taught me a lot with the guitar too! I also remember us singing at the top of our lungs in the car... Hmmmmm dont really remember why though!!!
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Guest Name:
Mary
Date:
Thursday, May 16, 2013
Comments:
and I saw the movie, "Ladyhawke" today. It was clear you saw the beauty in a simple old film
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Guest Name:
Mary Ann Myers
Date:
Thursday, May 2, 2013
Comments:
heard a Croce tune a playin' on the radio today..."Ya dont't tug on Superman's cape, ya don't spit into the wind, You don't pull off the mask off the mask off the old Lone Ranger, and you don't mess around with Jim"......Caeth love, LOVED, LOVED that song when his Dad played it on his guitar
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Guest Name:
Kimberley Arriaga Lopez
Date:
Friday, April 12, 2013
Comments:
Have been thinking a lot about you lately. Your Babies are so beautiful! I miss you.
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Guest Name:
Jake M.
Date:
Tuesday, April 9, 2013
Comments:
Still think of you often. Miss you old friend.
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Same feeling, new year - AJ
Date:
Monday, April 8, 2013
Comments:
CG - Again and again - I cant help but notice your presence. You'd laugh if you knew what kind of crazy has been poppin up in my world: Your song lyrics, the town you live in and the most terrible of tragedies - all things that are foreign to my world, unless we are nearing April 8th. I'm thinking of all that was wonderful. Hope you are smiling.
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Guest Name:
Mary Ann Myers
Date:
Sunday, February 10, 2013
Comments:
A lot a times I'm just cruisin' along in North County on a sunny day and I think of what a cool guy you are....how you liked the ocean and riding in the back of a truck when you were a kid
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Guest Name:
Wow, the time has gone by
Date:
Friday, December 7, 2012
Comments:
Hey Caeth, Maylie has grown up to be so beautiful and Butch looks just like you. I'm glad that you live on through them. I have kids of my own now, and I guess it leads me to pray for your kids even more. Caeth, there was a time when you glowed with the presence of God, and I pray that your kids know that God. I know that they are so special and gifted. I wish that you could see them, and wonder if God grants you glimpses every once in a while. My best memory of you was your laugh. It was so hardy and deep, and contagious. I will remember you like that.
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Guest Name:
Nathan Pearson
Date:
Friday, November 23, 2012
Comments:
Just stoping by to tell you how much we love and miss you. Love you brother. See you again someday...
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Guest Name:
Confused about Christianity
Date:
Friday, October 12, 2012
Comments:
The Bible mentions several instances of suicide, but does not give any specific laws about it. However, there are several passages that indicate life is given by God and only God has the right to take it away. For example:
"I came naked from my mother's womb," he said, "and I shall have nothing when I die. The Lord gave me everything I had, and they were his to take away. Blessed be the name of the Lord." (TLB, Job 1:21)
More specifically, God has given life to each of us to do his work on Earth. Our bodies belong to God, not to ourselves. So, it is up to Him to decide when our work on Earth is finished, not up to us:
Haven't you yet learned that your body is the home of the Holy Spirit God gave you, and that he lives within you? Your own body does not belong to you. For God has bought you with a great price. So use every part of your body to give glory back to God because he owns it. (TLB, 1st Corinthians 6:19-20)
Life has its ups and downs, and the down times are only
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Guest Name:
Date:
Friday, October 12, 2012
Comments:
I hope you kids are doing well. God bless you kids
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Guest Name:
Date:
Monday, August 27, 2012
Comments:
I love you and I miss you so much. Mom
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Guest Name:
Teddy Borja
Date:
Saturday, August 11, 2012
Comments:
Caeth, it was just 10 years ago when we reunited at the RBV 10-year class reunion. Mar and I talked to you and Leah and a great friendship was born. I saw the 20 year reunion pics on Facebook tonight and noticed a nice memorial table with your pic amongst three others and some candles. I think about you all of the time and I miss you.
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Guest Name:
AJ
Date:
Sunday, April 15, 2012
Comments:
m it was you.
I have to think that somewhere out there you are orchestrating these things ;) I hope you are smiling.
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Guest Name:
AJ
Date:
Sunday, April 15, 2012
Comments:
8 years: April 7th this year, a friend was going through a hard time in her relationship and asked me how I had dealt with losing you. She had no idea of the date or how pertinent the timing. It is the most interesting and and yet appropriate happening that somehow every year around this time I end up having a similar conversation - although the context always changes. I relive how we met and how bright the sun was that day, all the joy and new experiences in between, and that horrible day the sheriff told me to pull over on the side of the road.
I am getting married this year, to an amazing man :) I have told him about you over the years, but he had never seen a picture. We were going through pictures for our wedding website the other day and he came across that one of you and I where I was kissing your cheek and you werent quite ready for the flash. Of all the pictures he went through that day - he stopped on that one and asked who it was. I looked at it and smiled - and told hi
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Guest Name:
Christian
Date:
Sunday, April 8, 2012
Comments:
Thinking about you today, Caeth. Still miss you very much and often wish I could speak with you.
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Guest Name:
Jesse P.
Date:
Monday, February 27, 2012
Comments:
I visit this site every half a year or so. Caeth's name has been coming up in conversations quite a bit these days and it has reminded me of my old friend. Our family misses him and every week as I pass through Oside to surf, I get a touch of sadness from the memory of Caeth. I'll never forget when a meathead in Hungary yelled at us for getting in his "mirror space" at the gym. We had some great times, I only wish they could have lasted longer. Take time to cherish people.
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Guest Name:
guslukelucas@yahoo.com ( G. Luke Lucas )
Date:
Wednesday, January 25, 2012
Comments:
I remember be so " stoked" when I recieved a letter from you while you were a missionary in Uganda. At one point you were near an island that Micheal W. Smith sang about .
I will read my Bible and be thinking of you and Bob Hoekstra.
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Guest Name:
Drew Monge
Date:
Wednesday, June 22, 2011
Comments:
I'm an old friend of Caeth's. I went to high school with him back in Vista CA. He was a dear friend who led me to Christ. Last time I spoke with Caeth was back in 2000 or 2001; right before moving to Colorado. I was so excited to tell him what I've been up to in ministry, and that it was because of him that I was now doing ministry. If it wasn't for Caeth's persistent discipleship and frienship back when we were kids, I probably would have made a serious mess out of my life. He was literally my "stop-gap" sent from God. We met back when I was 15 years old. I am now 36 and thankful for the influence and friendship I had with him, and for the Lord using him in my life. Love you and miss you, Caeth. *Hugs*
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Guest Name:
Janice
Date:
Friday, March 25, 2011
Comments:
Just thinking about Caeth.
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Guest Name:
Camilo, Caeth's dad
Date:
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
Comments:
Caeth's kids, Maylie and Butch, are turning 12 and 9. They are doing great. Maylie has been dancing in ballet since she was 3. Recently Maylie was accepted in a summer program offered only to a handful of dancers based on their talent. If you would like to help with any of the cost, please contact us at 650 S. Rancho Santa Fe Rd.#22, San Marcos, 92078, 1-760-842-7873 or
cam-beth@cox.net We will be the relay to Leah. Thanks sincerely, Caeth's parents
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Guest Name:
AJ
Date:
Saturday, September 25, 2010
Comments:
Caeth.. There is a song on the radio that reminds me of you (as so many do). I wanted to check in and see your face.
I still can't believe all that has happened and the way that everything changed on that day.
But then I think of your smile, and how it truly could light a room. I know it is still lighting your path wherever you are.
Christian.. this site is a rock.
Leah.. I think about you and the kids often as well.
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Guest Name:
Mary Ann Myers (maryann.myers74@yahoo.com)
Date:
Monday, September 6, 2010
Comments:
I just found out today that Caeth went home to be with Lord. I am stunned. Caeth was the most ALIVE person I have known. He has a great sense of humor, and he even owned a boa constrictor when he was just a kid. I will always remember that he was the crime fighter, Green Lantern, for Halloween. He was a sure-shot with a bebe gun, but sometimes mistakenly shot the sliding glass door.
Rev.21:4
and He shall wipe away every tear from their eyes; and there shall no longer be any death; there shall not longer be any mourning, or crying, or pain; the first things have passed away.
Caeth Gonzales, You impacted my life.
With love and fond memories,
Mary Ann
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Guest Name:
Jason
Date:
Sunday, August 29, 2010
Comments:
Miss you a lot man. This time of year usually reminds me of you as our BDays were so close together. Hoping you are bathing in the grace and presence of your LORD.
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Guest Name:
Meredith Johnson (oxnard8273@yahoo.com)
Date:
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
Comments:
Caeth,
I miss you so much. I will never forget us playing guitar together as teenagers! I will never forget you telling me how much Jesus loves me and I will always hold strong to those words!
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Guest Name:
Leslie Borges Sands
Date:
Sunday, May 2, 2010
Comments:
Thinking of you- as always.
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Guest Name:
Dulci
Date:
Thursday, April 8, 2010
Comments:
Caeth, I am thinking of you today as I do often. I can't believe 6 years have gone by and it still feels like yesterday that you were here. There is a huge hole in our family that can never be filled. Missing you always...
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Guest Name:
Leah
Date:
Thursday, April 8, 2010
Comments:
I'll never forget the police car pulling up my driveway on Easter Sunday 6 years ago, and having to somehow tell Maylie that her Papa was gone. That was the hardest day of my life. The kids are so big now, and so beautiful and talented and wonderful. I go crazy thinking of all that you've missed.
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Guest Name:
Christian
Date:
Thursday, April 8, 2010
Comments:
Caeth, it's been 6 years now and you are still sorely missed. Wish you were around, my friend. Wherever you are, I hope things are better for you and wish I could really tell you how much I miss you and your friendship.
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Guest Name:
Amanda Garcia
Date:
Sunday, April 4, 2010
Comments:
Every moment was an adventure when you were around.
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Guest Name:
Amber
Date:
Sunday, April 4, 2010
Comments:
Easter weekend and I can't help but think of you....I haven't thought about you in a little while.
Tonight, I can't help but remember what you went through... I love you my friend. I am happy to think that tomorrow I will be with people who love you too!!!!
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Date:
Monday, March 8, 2010
Comments:
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Guest Name:
Date:
Thursday, February 25, 2010
Comments:
Thinking of you as someone else thought it was best to take their own. You are missed more then words or tears could ever express.
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Guest Name:
Rene' (continued)
Date:
Monday, February 15, 2010
Comments:
... smile to my face. Whether it's our school days, Wednesday nights at Bakers Square after youth group, bonfires at the O'side Harbor, you and Aaron skateboarding, playing guitar, yours and Leah's wedding. (Believe it or not, I think I still have the bottle of bubbles with tiny seashells on top from that day.)
In each of those memories I can see your shining face... bright and smiling... just like in these photos. When I think of all that it makes me happy. I miss you, but I'm so thankful you were a part of my life. It's going to be a great day when I hear your laughter in heaven my friend! :)
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Guest Name:
Rene'
Date:
Monday, February 15, 2010
Comments:
Caeth, It has been more than 5 years since I've spoken to anyone about you. I've thought about you now and then during that time. Sometimes I see something that reminds me of you. Other times it's nothing... just a sudden thought if you. Tonight, Teddy started talking about you, just out of the blue. He shared this website with me. When I opened it and saw your face, I started to cry... and cry and cry. Talking about you and seeing your smile after all these years really threw me for a loop. Then my mind began to flood with thoughts of you, and your family.
I remember when we met in middle school... we were about 10 and 12 years old. I used to love walking home with you because you were the cute, cool skater guy... ha ha ha! Hard to believe my son is almost the same age as we were then. He will be 10 on Aug. 26th -- the day before your birthday. Last time I saw you, he was just a baby... a year or two old.
I have so many memories of you throughout the years, and they all bring a sm
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Guest Name:
Nick
Date:
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Comments:
Thinking of you.I really miss you my friend!
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Guest Name:
Jenn Barron
Date:
Saturday, October 24, 2009
Comments:
I still have moments of disbelief when I think that you're gone. Somedays it just hits me hard. It's easier to be leave than to be left. You will be forever in our hearts.
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Guest Name:
George
Date:
Monday, August 31, 2009
Comments:
Just thinking about you man. I hope your family is doing well. Happy B-day man. Peace
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Guest Name:
JKM
Date:
Thursday, August 27, 2009
Comments:
Just thinking of you Caeth. School starts for many kids and that's where we spent so much of our time together. Olive, Washington and then Rancho.
Reading these comments is ever so sweet.
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Guest Name:
Amber
Date:
Thursday, August 27, 2009
Comments:
Happy Birthday! xoxo
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Guest Name:
Karri
Date:
Thursday, August 27, 2009
Comments:
Happy Birthday, my friend. I still miss you, but it hurts just a little less more often now. Tears are slowly being replaced by smiles when I think of you. Life is still going on for all of the people you left down here. One sweet day we will all be with you again forever. Till then.....my friend.....till then.
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Guest Name:
Christian
Date:
Thursday, August 27, 2009
Comments:
Happy Birthday, my friend.
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Guest Name:
Sarah Fox
Date:
Sunday, June 21, 2009
Comments:
...so much so that when I had my son in 2003, I wanted him to have a cool name that represented how unique and incredible he was to me, so I named him Caeth. I'm frequently asked where I got my son's name from, and I always tell them about this cool skater-dude I knew of at CCBC who seemed to be the kind of person I'd want my son to grow up to be. Therefore, I am deeply saddened to learn that my son's "namesake" passed away under such tragic circumstances. I wish I had known this wonderful, charismatic young man who was obviously loved so dearly (based on the many sincere comments left for him here.) I offer my deepest sympathy to his family and friends who still feel his loss so keenly. Whenever I reflect on my son's name, I'll always think fondly of Caeth Gonzales, and look forward to meeting him in Heaven someday...
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Guest Name:
Sarah Fox
Date:
Sunday, June 21, 2009
Comments:
I didn't know Caeth personally, but in a small way, I will always feel connected to him. I was a student at CCBC (Twin Peaks, CA) at the same time he was there, back in '95 or thereabouts, and I recall this "skater"-type guy w/a great smile, who seemed to be very popular amongst his group of friends. He always appeared to be lively and confident, and at the time, had what I thought was a really rad sense of style and individuality...I remember that one week he had black hair and a bright green goatee, and the next week, he did the reverse, and had green hair and a black goatee! In fact, most of his friends were pretty creative, along with him, in the hair-dying department! At any rate, I always found him intriguing, and when I learned that his name was Caeth (which I immediately fell in love with because of its originality), that completed the impression I had of him being a one-of-a-kind, special person. His name complemented his individuality well, and it stuck with me for many years
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Guest Name:
friend
Date:
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
Comments:
happy birthday. sorry you're gone. but you are in a better place and I can't wait to be there someday. many blessings to your children.
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Guest Name:
Larry Taylor
Date:
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
Comments:
i loved and still love caeth deeply. he was an awesome person - loving, filled with grace, smart, kind. he is with Jesus and we'll be together with him some day
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Guest Name:
Flora Fazekas
Date:
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
Comments:
I'm shocked, I didn't know until today that he's not here anymore ... I remember him so vividly from Debrecen, Hungary, though we met only a few times and it was ages ago... 10 or more years ago... I remember him so clearly, his story deeply touched me and they looked so perfect, leah and him together... I am truly sorry.
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Guest Name:
Akos Simics
Date:
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
Comments:
I remember how he always had time to talk to me, even when i was complaining about others. But he corrected me in the same time in love. he and Leah has a special place in my heart.
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Guest Name:
Christian Kingery
Date:
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
Comments:
Miss you so much, Caeth! Still! I think about you and our good times together all the time. I visited your kids at Christmas and they reminded me so much of you, especially Butch! Love you, man...
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Guest Name:
Amber and Xavier
Date:
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
Comments:
We miss you! Can't wait to see you again! xoxoxoxo
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Guest Name:
Date:
Sunday, April 5, 2009
Comments:
Just thinking about you Caeth on this Sunday evening.
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Guest Name:
Alex
Date:
Friday, January 16, 2009
Comments:
I thought I saw you last night. Its such a crazy thing. It I thought I saw you last night. Its such a crazy thing. It happens every few months or so when I think I see your face in someone driving by or someone smiling at me. Sometimes I think this was some sort of master joke… and you just decided one day to pick up and start a new life. I really hope so…. That said… all of the bay area Caeth look-a-likes think I’m picking up on them.. lol… I tend to stare a little too long.. and wait for the eye contact just to make sure… if only they knew without a sugar packet in hand…. I miss you.
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Guest Name:
Leslie (Borges) Sands
Date:
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Comments:
Our senior year @ RBV- I remember going back to school after Christmas break and finding a 1/2 a stick of gum on my desk. You said to me, "Happy be-lated birthday. I didnt buy you a birthday present so I'm giving you 1/2 my gum." lol- you were so random. No one could pull that off the way you could! Well, todays' my birthday and I sure wish I had a 1/2 a stick of gum waiting for me on my desk. Missing you, kiddo.
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Guest Name:
Josh
Date:
Sunday, December 21, 2008
Comments:
Miss you today.
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Guest Name:
Janice (Setter) Miszczak
Date:
Sunday, November 30, 2008
Comments:
Caeth- I'm just thinking about you. My daughter is in first grade now and I still can picture us at that age.
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Guest Name:
Clark Barry
Date:
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
Comments:
My first term at CCBC Caeth and I shared the same house. My first memory of him was when we were praying for one another, going around the circle... it seemed to be getting more and more spiritual with each passing guy. "Pray that I would just seek the Lord every day" "Pray for direction the Lord would have me to go" etc.. Then it gets to Caeth and he says," I pray for $10,000." I think the leader was a bit taken back and said something like "Do you need the money for something?" Caeth said, "No,its just a random number." He went on to explain that he wasn't struggling with any of the other topics, and he could always use $10,000. What a character. Caeth struck me right away as a person who was at peace with himself, His God, and those around him. Bless your family buddy, your legacy lives on.
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Guest Name:
Sean Connors
Date:
Sunday, November 23, 2008
Comments:
I knew you barely at Bible College in CCBC. I think you were first semester and I was on my last. I did not know you as a close friend but you were a brother in the Lord. God Bless your family.
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Guest Name:
Justin Stellman
Date:
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
Comments:
I'm just sitting here working and a Coldplay came on that was used in your photo slide show Christian put together. It's funny it's been 4 years and I still can't really listen to that song I have to turn it off. I'm still so bummed you're gone. I can't believe it still after 4 years. I miss you man.
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Guest Name:
Karri Jaynes Brown
Date:
Monday, September 1, 2008
Comments:
Happy Belated Birthday
I still miss you and think of you often. I think about your family, friends and your kids. August 27th should be a celebration, but since your death, it's all bittersweet. A life celebrated cut too short.A life burning bright snuffed out too soon. A smile, a laugh, a kind word.....missed.
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Guest Name:
Date:
Sunday, August 31, 2008
Comments:
To be angry with someone for being depressed, is to not really understand where
and how that person goes to those dark places. Those who are capable of reaching the greatest heights,often are the lonliest and fall farther down.though anger is
a natural reaction we should strive to understand the why. If caeth could have
helped himself he would have.
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Guest Name:
Nathan Pearson (pears009@yahoo.com)
Date:
Saturday, August 30, 2008
Comments:
Just stopped by to check out the site again. I had a friend who made an attempt on his life a week ago and to be honest I am really quite angry as well as sad. I am frustrated by the idea that we could have become greater friends and developed an even deeper relationship, but now there is no chance in that. You were someone as a kid that I looked up to and wanted to be like. I feel as though as I have matured into the person that I am today, we could have had a deeper connection and been great friends. Although I am sad, is it wrong to be angry??? It was a selfish act and irreversible,and that pains me deeply. You will be forever missed
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Guest Name:
Date:
Friday, August 29, 2008
Comments:
someday we'll look, face to face at first, and see the scars, and oh, how they have healed, the hurt buried beneath years of silence, and we'll laugh...at the simplest of things, and well sigh...that the world got a hold of us and wouldn't let go of it grip. Hey jojo, even though the world goes on, hearts love again, and memories replace the old ones, you were the ONE, and only in my dreams do I meet you. The future holds all that was ours.
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Guest Name:
Christian
Date:
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
Comments:
Happy Birthday, Caeth! Would love to be at pizza with you again on your birthday like we were five years ago. Miss you. Been thinking about you...
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Guest Name:
Jake
Date:
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
Comments:
Happy B-day. Been thinking of you.
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Guest Name:
Daniela Robb
Date:
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
Comments:
My name is Daniela and I never got to meet my half brother Caeth. I am thankful for this web site because I feel like I can get to know him through the words of everyone that visits this site. I can tell he was a great man and very loved!!
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Guest Name:
Christian Kingery
Date:
Monday, July 28, 2008
Comments:
Just thinking about you tonight, Caeth. Love you, man. Miss you.
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Guest Name:
Leslie (Borges) Higgins
Date:
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
Comments:
When I think of joy and happiness, a smile that can launch 1,000 ships and a laugh so addicting that when you hear it, you join in- I think of you. I have this site saved in my Favorites folder and it always makes me feel better, popping in here and reading comments about you. You're so missed, Gonzo- you are SO missed.
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Guest Name:
C.G
Date:
Sunday, June 1, 2008
Comments:
Hey Caeth, just needed some comfort today, and you came to mind, pulled up the many wonderful pictures and remembered our early years with "Grampo", even giggled for moment in memory of your mom and dads teepee in front of the old house in Oceanside. I'm all better now, thank you!!!!
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Guest Name:
jarofpretzels@yahoo.com
Date:
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Comments:
today i was talking to my wife about a great guy i knew once, Caeth, and how he had passed on. Out of boredom I decided if i could find anything online about him, and the search engine pulled up his name before I had even finished typing it. I met Caeth in Hungary back in, i can't recall, either 1997 or 1998. My church, Calvary Chapel of Vista went on a missionary trip to Hungary and at the time he was a pastor at a church in Debrecen. He just seemed like a real down to earth guy. After he returned to California, we stayed on a hi and bye basis. I mostly knew his brother n law though. Time went on, i moved around (now in texas) and i lost contact with that family. One day my sister told me he had died. And though we were never close friends, I was saddened to hear about his death. He'll be missed.
Donny Wright
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Guest Name:
Jessica Arenella
Date:
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
Comments:
My name is Jessica Arenella and I knew Caeth, a long time ago from Calvary Chapel. We were friends and we lost touch. I can't believe that he is gone. I have a bookmark that he gave me, I think it was for my graduation. He signed it and I found it recently and thought I might be able to find him again. I was so in love with him when I was 16, he represented everything beautiful and noble to me and I have since thought of him often. I know this is late, but I want to tell his family how sorry I am and that he was a huge soul and will be loved and missed... he is missed
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Guest Name:
Dulci
Date:
Saturday, April 12, 2008
Comments:
Caeth, can't believe you have been gone four years now! Seems like just yesterday you were here. I can hear your infectious laugh running through my mind right now. I often wonder how things would be if you were still here. Maylie and Butch are growing so much, it is amazing how Butch is the spitting image of you!! I only hope he will have the passion for life just as his father. In such a short time you touched so many lives. Imagine all that you could have done with a longer life? Well, I am getting ready to go to the cemetary and spend some time with you now. I miss you my brother......I know you are always watching over me and that is comforting.
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Guest Name:
AJ
Date:
Tuesday, April 8, 2008
Comments:
I cannot believe it has been 4 years. It seems like only yesterday you were here.
"And I'm sure the view from heaven
Beats the hell out of mine here
And if we all believe in heaven
Maybe we'll make it through one more year
Down here
You won't be comin' back
And I didn't get to say goodbye (goodbye)
I really wish I got to say goodbye"
Always...
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Guest Name:
Les Borges
Date:
Tuesday, March 4, 2008
Comments:
Thinking of you. I have such fond memories of you. I miss you.
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Guest Name:
Janice
Date:
Thursday, February 14, 2008
Comments:
Just thinking about you Caeth.
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Guest Name:
Henry Truong
Date:
Monday, February 4, 2008
Comments:
Man, we were talking about scripts, movies, and stuff. Heck he was a writer and a pool guy that I knew. He was a good guy who was charismatic and a good conversationalist unfortunately his inner demons got to him first. Man, Im crying hard, this sucks he's gone. We never had our meeting.
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Guest Name:
Henry Truong
Date:
Monday, February 4, 2008
Comments:
OMG! Its Monday, 7:58 pm on 2/4/2008. I dont know why, but Im chatting with my buddy Nathan Pearson and he tells me that Caeth passed away and told me about this site. I am in so much shock. I called (760) 439-3929 last month and several times but no one ever returned my call. WOW, just wow! Im shocked. WOW. This really sucks and I just found out.
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Guest Name:
Christian Kingery
Date:
Monday, November 26, 2007
Comments:
Hey Caeth. Just sitting here late at night listening to some Cat Stevens and thinking about you. I miss you immensely. I'd do anything to have a good, long talk with you right now. I still can't believe you're gone. Will that feeling ever lessen? I miss you and love you, my friend. I hate that you're gone.
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Guest Name:
Leslie (Borges) Higgins (kimiko02@yahoo.com)
Date:
Tuesday, October 2, 2007
Comments:
You were the most kindest person, I had ever met. I still can't believe you're not here. You have a beautiful family. We all miss you so much. Aloha oe.
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Guest Name:
Kimberly Arriaga Lopez
Date:
Sunday, September 16, 2007
Comments:
Hey Cousin! I miss you so much!
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Guest Name:
Christian Kingery
Date:
Monday, August 27, 2007
Comments:
Happy birthday, my friend! We miss you and love you.
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Guest Name:
Karri (Jaynes) Brown
Date:
Monday, August 27, 2007
Comments:
Seems like it was only yesteray,you were living here.Yea,you were living here. Lord,knows why he's taken you away.It isn't very clear,no it isn't very clear.Into every life a little rain must fall and losing one you love is like a storm.But storms are passing.I hear(Caeth)singing in heaven tonight.And in between the sadness,I hear(Caeth)telling(us)he's alright.Life goes on even after life.That's what I believe.Yea, that's what I believe.(Caeth's)gone but he will still survive in a memory that I'm keepng hee with me. Silencing the voice of mortal tragey,listening to whispers of the soul. All is peaceful.
(words by Michael W. Smith and Wayne Kirkpatrick)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, CAETH.
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Guest Name:
Paul Dawson
Date:
Sunday, July 15, 2007
Comments:
Been too long since I stopped by to say hi Caeth. Still miss going and shooting pool with everyone at the golden tee, boy what I would do to have that back. My thoughts are with you my Friend! Your presence is missed dearly...
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Guest Name:
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Date:
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
Comments:
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Guest Name:
Caeth
Date:
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
Comments:
in your footsteps only half a step behind. And when it's time for you to go....from that body to be free. Remember you're not going.....you're coming here to Me.
Love, Jim (pop)
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Guest Name:
Caeth
Date:
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
Comments:
bring you tears. But do not be afraid to cry: it does relieve the pain. Remember there would be no flowers, unless there was some rain. I wish that I could tell you all that God has planned. If I were to tell you, you wouldn't understand. But one thing is for certain, though my life on earth is over. I'm closer to you now, than I ever was before. There are many rocky roads ahead of you and many hills to climb; But together we can do it by taking one day at a time. It was always my philosophy and I'd like it for you too; That as you give unto the world, the world will give to you. If you can help somebody who's in sorrow and pain; Then you can say to God at night......"My day was not in vain." And now I am contented....that my life was worthwhile. Knowing as I passed along the way I made somebody smile. So if you meet somebody who is sad and feeling low; Just lend a hand to pick him up, as on your way you go. When you're walking down the street and you've got Me on your mind; I'm walkin
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Guest Name:
Caeth
Date:
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
Comments:
Dear friends, some things I'd like to say. But first of all, to let you know, that I arrived okay. I'm writing this from heaven. Here I dwell with God above. Here, there's no more tears of sadness; Here is just eternal love. Please do not be unhappy just because I'm out of sight. Remember that I am with you every morning, noon and night. That day I had to leave you when my life on earth was through. God picked me up and hugged me and He said, "I welcome you. It's good to have you back again, you were missed while you were gone. As for your dearest friends, they'll be here later on. There's so much that we have to do, to help our mortal man." God gave me a list of things, that he wished for me to do. And foremost on the list, was to watch and care for you. And when you lie in bed at night the day's chores put to flight. God and I are closest to you....in the middle of the night. When you think of my life on earth, and all those loving years.Because you are only human, they are bound to
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Guest Name:
Paul Claudio
Date:
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
Comments:
I was thinking about the kids. I can't even begin to imagine what life is like not having their dad around. All I can think of is that no matter what, there is always tomorrow. I hope that Maylie and Butch realize that they are not alone. There are a lot of us who were friends with their dad and would love to be there for the two of them. Please realize that life is what you make it. Though there are things well beyond our control, know that tomorrow will always be a new day... a new begining.
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Guest Name:
AJ
Date:
Sunday, April 8, 2007
Comments:
It's a brand new year, but it still feels the same.
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Guest Name:
Amber
Date:
Sunday, April 8, 2007
Comments:
Man I miss you!!!
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Guest Name:
Bryon Morales
Date:
Sunday, April 8, 2007
Comments:
Caeth I just wanted to drop by. It seems like yesterday we were up in the mountains at school. I miss you
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Guest Name:
Christian Kingery
Date:
Sunday, April 8, 2007
Comments:
It's been 3 years since you left us. Your friends think about you often and talk about you regularly. You are dearly missed. Wish you were here.
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Guest Name:
Nicole
Date:
Thursday, February 22, 2007
Comments:
I happened upon this site by a fluke some might say, but I know the Father has His mighty hand on it all~ I truly appreciate the man this site is about and the family and friends that care enough to share their joy in knowing him. My prayers are with your family, whoever you might be (The Lord knows who I'm praying for anyway). I have tears and a new appreciation for life's moments, and praise God that the witness here on this page can offer such a link to God's awesome grace and love~ I know this man is dining with Jesus, waiting for us all to join him. I hope my prayers for peace are covering you all, and I'm wondering if there is a memorial fund set up for his wife and children? God's Blessings to you all. n.rouette@cox.net
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Guest Name:
A. Jeffrey Ruiz
Date:
Thursday, January 11, 2007
Comments:
Caeth... I have had the privilege of being used in ministry as a worship leader for the last 10 years. God has much grace and mercy to use a person like me in spite of who I am. When I think of worship, I think of what it is in itself... it's a lifestyle... it's a response to what God has done for us. And the first time I realized this was in the High school fellowship with Rob Salvato. I remember just singing the songs wondering when they were going to end. I looked to my right and there you were, singing your heart out to Jesus, lifting your hands, with your eyes squeezed so tightly, forcing tears down your face. I thought yo myself, "this guy knows what it is like to really KNOW God." From that point on, I knew there was something deeper that I was not experiencing, and that I suddenly wanted more than anything. I wanted what you had, Caeth, and God used you to show me what I was missing.....
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Guest Name:
Eva Nagy Ujszaszi
Date:
Sunday, December 24, 2006
Comments:
Today I remembered the Christmas seasons we had in Debrecen, those were great times. We are spending a few days together with Bea and Johnsie and some other friends. God had His own way with all of us, but there's one thing we all agree about: if you are with Him right now, in glory, we are actually jealous of you and we are all waiting for the time when we can greet you over there. Sometimes I check the garrettphotography website and your children are really lovely. I'm sure you would've been a wonderful Dad. Only God knows why there was a different road for you to take and only He can keep us in peace. So I guess I want to wish a peaceful, merry Christmas to all those who remember you.
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Guest Name:
Christian Kingery
Date:
Thursday, November 16, 2006
Comments:
Hey, Caeth, been thinking about you a lot lately. You've been gone a while now, but the feeling that I'm gonna get a call, email, or visit from you never really goes away. I miss you so much. I find myself talking about you a lot with those who knew you, and sometimes even with those who didn't. I'm so glad you were in my life for the time I knew you. I have so many good memories. Miss you, man.
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Guest Name:
Gen Martinez >>>Jewels316
Date:
Friday, October 27, 2006
Comments:
I was just browsing around checking things out and your picture drew my attention in. I don't know you or even knew "Caeth", but from the video I seen of him (over & over), he must of been a great guy. He was a beautiful person I can tell just by the smiles he had throughout the video and the feeling I got by watching it was Awesome! I don't know how he passed away or why but I have this warm feeling he's being taken care of by the Father above, and is looking down on those who he loved & those who made him happiest.
Anyways, I'm glad I was drawn in to view his video without ever knowing him or you it made me feel good warmth inside, so thank you for that. I'm sorry for your loss, however you all will be together again oneday.
God Bless You & Your Family
God Bless You Caeth your a beautiful person
(A compassionate friendly person with a heart)
Gen Martinez
JenuineJewel316@yahoo.com
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Guest Name:
Nick Wright
Date:
Sunday, October 1, 2006
Comments:
Thinking of you Caeth.I miss you.
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Guest Name:
Amber :)
Date:
Saturday, September 23, 2006
Comments:
For some reason I can't get you out of my head today!!! I went to somewhere today that we used to hang out and a flood of memories came back! I also found a video of me, you, Elizabeth, JJ and Mara playing a game of Taboo!!! I am gathering up a some people to play it tonight. Erika is coming over and a few other people you never knew, but Erika and I will be thinking of you tonight! Remember "hour de ourvers"?? Thank God I still have it on tape! :) I saw your dad the other day and I see you in his eyes and laugh! Love ya, thought I would tell ya~
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Guest Name:
Karri (Jaynes) Brown karri1n3@aim.com
Date:
Sunday, August 27, 2006
Comments:
Happy Birthday Caeth.
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Guest Name:
Amber (amberlynne@cox.net)
Date:
Sunday, August 27, 2006
Comments:
Happy Birthday Caeth!
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Guest Name:
Christian Kingery
Date:
Sunday, August 27, 2006
Comments:
Happy Birthday, Caeth! We all miss you, man. I can't believe you've been gone for over 2 years. It still kind of feels like you're going to show up or call or something. I wonder how many years it will take until it really hits that we won't be able to take you out for another birthday ever again. So many people miss you. We talk about you a lot. And we think about you even more. Wish you were here.
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Guest Name:
Dulci
Date:
Saturday, August 19, 2006
Comments:
Well I can't believe it has been over two years that you have been gone. Seems like just yesterday we were just kids in that shack on the side of the hill in Oceanside. So long ago now. Wish we could go back and grow up all over again maybe it could be better. I would change so many things. You were more like a brother to me than a cousin and I miss you every day. The family is a lot closer now too bad it took such a tragedy to make that happen. We try to get Brady together with Maylie and Butch so they will know their cousins like I did with you and Joaquin. We have some crazy stories from growing up huh?! I still think that I will wake up and see you again, can't believe you are gone. The family and the hearts of those you touched will be forever changed. I promise to share all of our wonderful memories with the kids and tell them what a wonderful person their dad was. Your birthday is coming soon, remember we are the same age for a few months, but I am always older, darn! I look for
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Guest Name:
Nathan Pearson
Date:
Sunday, July 23, 2006
Comments:
Just thinking of you and your family, you had a profound impact on so many lives and are missed by many everyday…All Caeths family and friends; hope you are well, and the Lord is blessing each of your lives in a mighty way. Pears009@yahoo.com
- N
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Guest Name:
mom
Date:
Wednesday, July 5, 2006
Comments:
Caeth, been thinking so much of you with Joaquin's birthday and yours coming up and Joaquin's and Michelle's wedding. Could you come? If I could have anything in the world, it would be a hug from you, my role model. Yeah, it sounds funny coming from me, your mom. But as a kid, you were so amazingly soulful and smart, I was always impressed by you. But my bad decisions and mistakes were what kept us apart. It was always up to you as to whether we would talk. And you were finally open to me. Now I have a million questions. By the way, how is it there? Send me a message. As a man, I wish I could have you hold me, so I could feel your comfort and you mine. Miss you, man. But I smile when I think of what you'd be doing, thinking, saying. I feel like we've all grown. Maylie and Butch are amazing. So you. Love, profoundly
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Guest Name:
Justin
Date:
Friday, June 23, 2006
Comments:
Hey Caeth. It's been a couple years and I still can't really seem to make any progress with you being gone. I mean I still think about you a lot and don't want to forget the times we hung out or the memories I have of you. But it seems like I have to think harder and harder to remember all the little things. I'm still bummed. You had such an impact on everybody you came in contact with. You were one of those rare people who can do that. I miss our deep conversations and your laugh. I still can't watch any of the video clips. There's no way. Still missin you man....
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Guest Name:
WILLY
Date:
Tuesday, June 13, 2006
Comments:
CAETH YOU ARE MISSED, I THINK OF YOU OFTEN AND STILL DONT UNDERSTAND IT. I DO KNOW ONE THING FOR CERTAIN , YOU ARE ONE OF A KIND AND YOU WERE VERRRRY NICE, I WISH WE COULD TALK OR DO SOMETHING TOGETHER. YEAH YOU WERE REALLY A NICE PERSON, IM GLAD I GOT TO KNOW YOU EVEN IF IT WAS JUST FOR A SHORT WHILE , I WILL KEEP YOUR FAMILY AND YOUR CHILDREN IN MY PRAYERS CAETH, I FEEL YOUR PRESENCE AS I AM LOOKING AT YOUR PICS AND WRITING THIS,PLEASE KEEP WATCH OVER ALL OF US, I KNOW THATS HOW YOU ARE THX! XX WILLY~*
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Guest Name:
Dame One
Date:
Monday, June 12, 2006
Comments:
Caeth IJust sending you a shout out from Earth!
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Guest Name:
Tanya Austin
Date:
Tuesday, April 11, 2006
Comments:
Thinking of you and your family today.
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Guest Name:
Jennipher Koch (Dunn)
Date:
Monday, April 10, 2006
Comments:
I was so hard on you...but didn't even realize that the tough exterior was to disguise a tender heart. I was one of the few who never had a crush on you, I can honestly say you were like one of my brothers. I can't tell you how much we have missed knowing the old you. Something changed inside you...but I beleive with all of my heart that the One who made you...who knows your frame, that we are just dust...has made you whole again. Agape and grace my precious friend, Jennipher
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Guest Name:
Date:
Saturday, April 8, 2006
Comments:
"So let us know, let us press on to know the Lord, His going forth is as certain as the dawn; And He will come to us like the rain, Like the spring rain watering the earth." Hosea 6:3- Gonzales family is in my prayers...my love to you always.
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Guest Name:
Jesse Winkler
Date:
Saturday, April 8, 2006
Comments:
I've met Caeth but I didn't really know him. But man, I'm sad today after catching up on all that's happened. I know I'm not half as sad as all of you who love him. I'm praying today for all of you who love Caeth and mostly for those of you who depended on him. Maybe someone at some point might find encouragement from Psalm 77 - "Will the Lord reject forever? Will he never show his favor again? Has his unfailing love vanished forever? Has his promise failed for all time? Has God forgotten to be merciful? Has he in anger withheld his compassion? Then I thought, 'To this I will appeal: the years of the right hand of the Most High.' I will remember the deeds of the LORD; yes, I will remember your miracles of long ago. I will meditate on all your works and consider all your mighty deeds. Your ways, O God, are holy. What god is so great as our God?"
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Guest Name:
Éva Nagy Ujszászi (sisevi@freemail.hu)
Date:
Friday, March 3, 2006
Comments:
I still have some old recordings from services at Calvary Chapel Debrecen with Caeth leading worship. I know there are so many other guitar players who are more "professional" on the guitar. However, when Caeth played the guitar and chose to lead the most simple songs, the presence of the Lord came down and there was a very special spirit there. His worship and his teaching were very simple, and that is why he was the perfect instrument to present the simplicity and the greatness of God. We all recognized the reflection of Christ in him.
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Guest Name:
Amber Peralez(Corson)amberlynne@cox.net
Date:
Tuesday, January 31, 2006
Comments:
I have been thinking of you so much lately. I went to a funeral the other day. I just kept thinking of yours and it felt like it was all a dream. Like I had just imagined all of it. See you on the other side my friend!
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Guest Name:
Karri(Jaynes)Brown @ karri1n3@netscape.net
Date:
Sunday, January 22, 2006
Comments:
Dear Leah,Maylie and Butch. You are in my prayers today. I hope all is well. If you talk to Caeth's mom, dad or brother, tell them I am thinking of them. If you see them, tell them I pray they are well. Write and update me on Maylie and Butch. Please. My love to all of you.
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Guest Name:
Tanya (Hammonds) Austin
Date:
Tuesday, January 10, 2006
Comments:
This is all so bitter sweet. People from the past, people I've never met. I think about you, Caeth, so often. I, too, feel your spirit. At the most random times, you are there. Hello again! I just want to cry. You have touched so many lives and are still actively speaking to people. Dan Malloy -- I hear you; Amber -- I hear you; and George and Damion. There is suffering, a weight on my heart. There is also joy to be remembered. Leah, I think of you too; and the children. My God, be with the children. See you, Caeth.
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Guest Name:
Daniel Malloy dan.malloy@gmail.com
Date:
Thursday, January 5, 2006
Comments:
It’s been about 1¾ years since you left. Finally, I’m acknowledging that you are gone. I’ve discussed your departure with people but never really accepted it. I haven’t really mourned until today. Why so long? Suppression. This has been a theme for my life in the past few years but now it will change because of you. See Caeth; you’re still doing wonderful things. Although I can’t see or hear you like I wish so much to be able to do again, I feel your presence. Your spirit is your greatness.
I remember ‘99, moving back to Oceanside where I grew up. Little did I know that the best thing about moving into that apartment complex would be you, a most influential neighbor. My first impression of you was a guy who’d probably end up partying with me. I remember you and a bunch of your friends coming downstairs where I offered you a chance to share in my solo party. You refused in a way that made me feel like such an idiot. This made me wonder what kind of person this tattooed kid was. I was able to find out when I introduced my friends to you. I wasn’t a Christian at the time nor did I have any desire to become one. You and my friends talked a bit about the subject which sounded completely retarded to me. But there was something different about you and your faith that I hadn’t seen before. You seemed to be a normal down to earth guy unlike many of the heavy in your face bible pushers I’d met. Something about you helped me open my ears to this foolishness people call Gospel.
Humble solemnity was your game. A short time after our discussions, I was awkwardly reporting back to you about surrendering to God and the rest of my salvation experience. You were very welcoming. You invited me to check out your church. I became a regular and looked forward to each Lord’s Day that I spent there. Caeth, you were my mentor through this wonderful experience. You were so humble and wise. You were so true and pure even in your struggles. I remember my jealousy of your person and spirit. I still struggle with this particular sin. I can only morph this envy into inspiration. I remember you reading scripture to Maylie night after night. You were the kind of father I not only dreamed to model but the kind I dreamed of having.
Caeth, I am so sorry for not being a good friend and keeping in close touch with you after leaving Oceanside. I found out from Leah that you felt alone like you didn’t have many friends. I feel so guilty for this. I too wonder if I had just called you, took you surfing, or something, you’d be here. But it’s too late now. Want to know something crazy? I found out about you by email at work a week after it happened. I was returning after 2 weeks of medical leave for depression! I know what it’s like to be in dark places and to contemplate terrible things. God I wish you’d sought help! God I wish I’d been a better friend. This is the worst way to realize how important that is. I will miss you.
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Guest Name:
Karri Brown (Jaynes) karri1n3@netscape.net
Date:
Saturday, December 24, 2005
Comments:
Merry Christmas. I wish you joy and peace in heaven.
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Guest Name:
Erika DeVelasco
Date:
Saturday, December 10, 2005
Comments:
I just got home from Leah's wedding and the kids are getting so big and are so beautiful. Everything was beautiful. I couldn't help thinking about you though as I know most people were too. Your kids will be loved and will grow up loving Jesus and that makes me happy. It was still a hard day for me though. When I said bye to JoJo, he said "bye nine" and a flood of memories came pouring back into my head. What a bittersweet day. See you in heaven my friend.
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Guest Name:
Leslie Giffen
Date:
Tuesday, November 29, 2005
Comments:
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Guest Name:
Teddy Borja
Date:
Wednesday, November 16, 2005
Comments:
Just been thinking of you a lot lately on the drives to and from work. I never got the chance to ask you to be one of my groomsmen. You are always in my heart.
-Teddy
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Guest Name:
Susan (Zale) Van Ness
Date:
Wednesday, October 12, 2005
Comments:
I only knew Caeth as a young man and he was a wonderful person. I only wish that i would have known him as a grown man. He and his family are very special to me. I loved the slideshow and most important would love to contact Camilo, Beth & Joaquin. Could you please ask them to call me at 303-513-1333, I would really love to see them. Thank you!
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Guest Name:
Nick Wright
Date:
Monday, October 3, 2005
Comments:
Thinking of you my friend.
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Guest Name:
Mike
Date:
Wednesday, September 28, 2005
Comments:
I was sitting at my computer listening to music and "Somewhere over the Rainbow" from 50 First Dates came on. It reminded me of the time you came back from watching it. You had to play that song. I'll never forget ya!
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Guest Name:
Amber Peralez(Corson)
Date:
Monday, September 5, 2005
Comments:
Your mom did Michayla's hair last saturday and she looks beautiful. I wish you could see her. I could imagine that you have Maylee and Butch and we are at a playground and our children are playing together. I know Michayla would have thought that you are the funniest guy around. You and X would have goofed around with all three around of them and made all of them laugh. I miss the way things used to be. God please come quickly please end all of this suffering.
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Guest Name:
Damian jay Granados
Date:
Sunday, August 28, 2005
Comments:
Thats whats up? This is one of those things that is unexplainable. i have not been around caeth since High School. He wrote me a couple of letters trying to tell me about Jesus and he sent me some pictures of him in Africa. i always felt even though we went down seperate paths we would one day see each other again. This morning i was thing about him and typed his name into the computer. It was very sad to see that he is gone. I definately would like to express that Caeth was truly 100% in everything he did. He has an amazing power that touches the heart. If anyone who knows me from the old days heres my email monavis@hotmail.com . I would like to send love to his family and especially his Dad Camillo. God Bless you all. peace Dame one
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Guest Name:
Date:
Saturday, August 27, 2005
Comments:
PREDESTINED SEPARATION PROMISES A FUTURE MEETING.
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Guest Name:
Date:
Saturday, August 27, 2005
Comments:
Thinking about you... wish you were here so I could buy you a shot. Hoping for the best for you from the other side my friend. Much love and missing you!
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Guest Name:
Karri(karri1n3@aol.com)
Date:
Saturday, August 27, 2005
Comments:
Happy Birthday, Caeth.
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Guest Name:
George Templeton (San AntonioTX.)
Date:
Saturday, August 13, 2005
Comments:
Caeth,
It's been awhile since I've stopped in. I have been thinking about you lately. Wondering how your family is holding up. Man how I wish you would have held on Bro. Life sucks, It's no picnic I know. I can't tell you how many times I've wanted to give up. I hope that your family can eventualy come to some sort of closure. Caeth, remember when we went to the lazirium in my mom's Volvo. We broke down, and we saw some friends from middle school. You waited there while I called my Mom for a ride. Then you totally witnessed to those guys. When my mom showed up, you said you were going to stay. My Mom told you to get in, and you told my Mom that God had work to be done there. Then my Mom waited while you witnessed to those guys in the parking lot. Hours went by and you never gave up on them. They laughed at you, mocked God, and yet you passivly listened. Man you didn't quit. Why did you quit Caeth? I'll see you later Bro. My best to your family. May God look down on them and protect them.
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Guest Name:
Éva Nagy Ujszaszi
Date:
Friday, August 12, 2005
Comments:
Dear Caeth. Leah, Christian and Elizabeth,
I didn't know about Caeth's passing away before last week. I always check the Calvary Debrecen website, but there was nothing written about it. I met Melinda on the train last week and she told me. I was on my way to Johnsie's and Bea's, so now even us who have not been in touch with Calvary Debrecen know. When we found out, I just had no words to say. Neither did the others.Then we started crying and mourned over him. I remember he told me once that I always need to seek for and get fresh manna every day, and that is what often kept me going in my harder times of life. Caeth, we love you with Christian love and dispite all the teachings and theories we heard we do believe that you are with the Lord. Leah, there is no pain a believer could not bear,because you do have strenght for everything in Christ Jesus, who strenghtens you; and I believe what I always heard from Christian and what I always read in Romand: "All things work out for good for those who love God." Even if this seems to be unbearable,I believe He is drawing you closer to Himself. In the past years I had dreams about you guys so many times and once I even walked up to a bald guy on the train because I thought he was Christian. I really would love to hear from you. My e-mail is sisevi@freemail.hu We all love you: Éva,Gabor, Johnsie and Bea
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Guest Name:
Tiyanya tiyanya@hotmail.com
Date:
Friday, July 29, 2005
Comments:
Where do I start? It is hard to talk to a computer but I will try very hard to imagine Caeth that you can hear me. That you are reading my thoughts as I am typing them. As we sat in Marriage and Family class you were so quiet. You always seemed to have alot on your mind. I was opposite. Quite the outgoing ready to get in your business. I remember the first time you laughed at one of my supposed jokes. I remember your love for Jesus. I remember the days and nights you spent with me telling about the Joy and Love of Jesus. I wasn't walking with God back then. Not even close. But God used you to save my life. You gave your life compeletly for Him and because of that you saved so many others lives. Caeth I love you. And I was in love with you in high school. But you were so obedient and so faithful. And I was reckless at the time. Lost and full of anger. And you knew God had a beautiful and wonderful woman just for you. Thank you for inviting into your life. Thank you for taking the time to talk with me. I thank you Lord Jesus, for Caeth. For the many ways in which you used him to touch the lives of sooooo many. Caeth I know you are in heaven. And I know you can hear me and everyone else that reaches out to you. You know that your are loved and missed. For so long it was on my heart to get in touch with you. And I tried so many ways. I even left messages on peoples answering machines that probably thought I was crazy. Leah, I remember when I first met you and fell in love with you instantly. You have such a wonderful spirit. I pray for you and your amazing and beautiful children. Camilo and Bethany, thank you, thank you for taking the time to talk with me and share so many wonderful memories of your son. God Bless you all!
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Guest Name:
Karri(karri1n3@aol.com)
Date:
Friday, July 8, 2005
Comments:
I was thinking about you today as I find myself doing often. I will be driving down highway 78 through San Marcos and glance twards the cemetary where you are and I feel sad for your loved ones you left behind. I will driving past Calvary Chapel and be filled with memories of you there. I can't believe you and Josh Foster aren't here anymore. Death is such a strange thing to me these days. I've lost many friends, but your death haunts me the most, because you died by your own hand and not by some accident or by someone else's hand . I keep saying to myself if I had stayed in contact, maybe I could have called over there that night and said just the right thing at the right time and youd still be here.I know alot of people must feel that way, right? My youngest daughter is Maylie's age and I can't image the dark place you must have been in to leave your daughter and son behind. I know you and Leah had divorced but you still loved her. Love never dies, but you did and I don't understand. Your dad told me you had struggled with depression all your life. I don't understand why you just didn't reach out to someone that night. What pushed you past the point of no return that night? What broke you? So many questions left unanswered. I'm sorry fot the pain you had in life. I miss you, my friend.I really miss you.
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Guest Name:
Teddy
Date:
Saturday, May 28, 2005
Comments:
You've been on my mind a lot lately.
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Guest Name:
Date:
Saturday, May 21, 2005
Comments:
i miss you.
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Guest Name:
Leah Gonzales (coconuticecream@sbcglobal.net)
Date:
Tuesday, May 3, 2005
Comments:
Christian was right. We won't get over it. I remember you saying that too. Maylie talks about you a lot. This morning, Butch saw a picture of you. He said, "Is that my Papa?" I said "Yeah. Do you remember him?" He said, "Yeah. Is he coming over?" I told him, "No. He died." He said, "Oh, is he dying from death?" (Actually, it was more like, "Is he dying from def?") Then he asked, "He's not coming back?"
His little mind is so confused. He's trying to understand. But even though he had just turned 2 when you died, he remembers some. He saw my dad down at the bottom of the driveway the other day, and asked "Mom, is that my dad?"
Maylie and Butch are so precious. You are missing so much. And you are missed.
We will never be the same. Our hearts have been broken. I hope Maylie and Butch never know your pain. I still feel it every day.
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Guest Name:
Nick Wright
Date:
Friday, April 15, 2005
Comments:
Caeth I miss you so much.I think of you all the time.All my love
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Guest Name:
Chavon Crystal (chavoncrystal@hotmail.com)
Date:
Wednesday, April 13, 2005
Comments:
Caeth,
I'm glad I found this site dedicated to you. I have thought about you so much this year. I never did get to say goodbye, or to make amends to you, but that doesn't take away from who you were in my life. You had so much strength and ambition. You shared so much of yourself with everyone you met. It breaks my heart to think that you are gone. Sometimes I play mafia with my own church group and I can imagine you in the middle of the circle directing the game. Even though we didn't leave off well, I am so glad that I got to know you and your family. I pray for Leah and Maylie and Butch everyday. I know that they have left a living legacy of you. You will always be remebered and loved.
Chavon
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Guest Name:
Teddy Borja
Date:
Saturday, April 9, 2005
Comments:
A year has passed but there isn't a day that goes by when something reminds me of you.
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Guest Name:
Amber
Date:
Friday, April 8, 2005
Comments:
Caeth, I have thought so much about you this year! Today is my ten year wedding anniversary with Xavier. I have pictures and video of you on this day ten years ago! I am so so so sad! You were one of a kind. Erica and I had biscuits and gravy on Easter morning in rememberance of you. I still have that video of you singing that song you wrote about biscuits and gravy! I wish you were still here. I have so many great memories of you. I remember when your car, the Camero, exploded. I remember you droping X off where I was babysitting and the horrible smell that lingered as you drove off. X and I wondered if we should run after you and tell you that people were almost passing out from the gas smell that followed your car. Instead we stood there and laughed because you drove to fast for us to get too. We thought you would make it home and we would call you at home and let you know. Then you were late to come and pick me up at my house so that we could go to the Hard Rock Cafe in La Jolla. I called you and you said your car had blown up and to come over right away! X and I got in his jeep and rushed over promissing ourselves that we would not laugh when we saw you. We parked down the street and walked slowly over to the chared remains of the Camero. Then you emerged from behind the wreckege and we burst out in laughter. Oh, I tried to hold it in but when I saw you laughing I knew it was okay. I then noticed you weren't wearing your lucky hat. You know the one you would not let go of. That nasty, ducked taped, dirty stussy hat you insisted on wearing forever. We all looked solemly at the hat as it lay lifeless at the bottom of the car, water logged and pathetic. You picked it up and wrung it out and said,"It's still good." You said you were getting prideful driving that car so it was better that it burned. We laughed together all night long! Caeth I just spent an hour answering my daughters questions about you. She thinks you were so funny. She is intriguged by you. I told her funny stories about you and told her about how you passionatly loved the Lord. You are not dead Caeth Zaoy Gonzales you are more alive today than you have ever been in your life here on earth. We will see you soon and I cannot wait. I love you! Hey guess what Erika and I are going to Africa, we will remember you!
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Guest Name:
Karri
Date:
Friday, April 8, 2005
Comments:
I can't believe it's been a year. I swear I just saw you walking down the isle at graduation and that smile you gave everyone in the croud. I remember it all like yesterday.It feels unreal. I promised myself I'd visit your gravesite today,and I will, but I'm not really sure why. You aren't there. But the problem is you aren't here either.Anyway I just wanted to let you know that even now you are in my thoughts as I am sure many are thinking of you on this day. Leah has been great in providing us on updates of Maylie and Butch. She is wonderful. I miss you my friend. Thank you for being so great while you were here. Do me a favor, Don't fly too close to the sun. It might get jealous.
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Guest Name:
Tanya (Hammonds) Austin
Date:
Friday, April 8, 2005
Comments:
Hi Caeth, I've thought about you alot this past year. I miss you.
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Guest Name:
Jenn
Date:
Friday, April 8, 2005
Comments:
I can't believe it's been a year! Caeth I miss you!
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Guest Name:
Christian Kingery
Date:
Friday, April 8, 2005
Comments:
Well, my friend...it's been a year since you took your leave. Nevertheless, I can picture you as well as I can picture anyone I know, probably more. No one has occupied my heart and mind as much as you this past year. I can picture you so well. I can picture you showing up at the airport in Entebbe, Uganda excited for the opportunities that lay ahead. I can picture you covered with a layer of dirt about an inch thick after a trip out Hoima without a shower for 7 days or so. I can picture you in your green jacket at the Bible College with a green goatee to match. I can picture you lighting off bottle-rockets INSIDE the house we were renting in Twin Peaks. I can picture you in Seattle... with a brown goatee, a white goatee, and then you first tattoo that you didn't want to tell anyone about! Ha! I can picture picking you up at the airport in Budapest and you being so ticked because they strip searched you. It was probably because you looked like some kind of "hoodlum" yet you flew business class! Ha ha ha. I can picture you teaching a weekly Bible study in Debrecen, Hungary...you're Bible in your right hand and using your left hand for illustration. I can picture you standing next to me baptizing dozens of people. I can picture you leaving Hungary after 2 years and handing me 500 forints at the airport. I still have that 500 forint bill for some reason. I'm glad I do. I can picture playing Tony Hawk Pro Skater 2 at your apartment in Oceanside. Every once in a while you let me win. I can picture our monthly poker games which were always the highlight of my month, and I think of yours too. I can remember how you'd hug me after a month or so of not seeing me. You were/are my only friend who ever did this. I miss it. I can picture picking you up at the airport in Seattle last year with Maylie. I can picture dropping you off there on January 11th 2004, the last day I ever saw you. Finally, with a broken heart, I can remember touching you lifeless in your coffin. I wish I couldn't/didn't have to/wasn't able to remember that. I miss you my friend....I can remember telling you once that if you ever killed yourself, it would be heartbreaking to us, and that we would miss you more than we could explain. Youd said, "You'd get over it." You were wrong. It still breaks my heart, and I miss you more every day.
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Guest Name:
Erika DeVelasco
Date:
Sunday, March 27, 2005
Comments:
I was just remembering last Easter when I got the horrible news. There is so much I want to write about my friend Caeth...so many little funny wonderful memories. He will forever live in our minds and hearts. I have never met anyone quite like him...he was very special to all of us. I can never listen to a Cat Stevens song without thinking of him. I remember how he also loved to sing Rocky Racoon whenever anyone asked him to. I used to work with him at Marshalls and we had a co-worker who was mormon. Caeth was always talking religion with him and I remember overhearing some girls in our breakroom talking about how Caeth told this mormon guy that he was going to hell when he dies. When I told Caeth about this, he was so happy. He loved stirring things up and rocking peoples world for Jesus. Miss him. He introduced me to the love of my life and was even in our wedding, even though I know wearing a tuxedo wasn't his idea of a good time. He did it anyway, for us. He also made the best biscuits and gravy. Amber Peralez and I had biscuits and gravy this morning for breakfast in his honor. I wish there was something I could have done to help him...so that he could still be here with us and his children on our Lord's resurrection day.
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Guest Name:
Kimberley Arriaga Lopez
Date:
Thursday, March 24, 2005
Comments:
My heart and my thoughts are with you this week as well as anytime, however this week especially. I want to say I love you Uncle Camilo & Aunt Beth & Joaquin. I had a dream of you last night Joaquin and I worry about you. I know we didn't see each other much but I always think about you and you are constantly in my prayers. I do not know how it feels to lose someone as close to me as you have I just pray God can ease the ache that you feel. Give Maylie and Butch a kiss from their cousins and tell them that we love them.
All of our love,
Kim, George, Georgie & Angelique
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Guest Name:
Karri (Jaynes) Brown
Date:
Saturday, February 26, 2005
Comments:
Caeth was a very special person. His gentle ways had a positive effect on people. I had the pleasure of meeting him in high school. We also spent time together at church and camp as well as lunch meetings. I saw first hand how God used Caeth. I can't understand how someone who showed so many the Son could live in such sad darkness. I guess I never will. My fondess memory of him was him telling me about his birth. He said his parent were hippies and that he was born in the woods. He said he even helped build the cabin he was born in. I was saying" cool" before I relized what he had just said. He just laughed when I said "Hey,How could....." I also will never forget the time at camp when I revealed something quite painful to a small group of about a thousand people. He came and held me till I felt better. That's who he was to me and so many others I guess. It always struck me that he physically resembled how many of us picture what Jesus may have looked like. Maybe there was such a strong resembelance because it started from the inside. I never told him how much he ment to me. I hadn't seen him since High School Graduation but I always said the next time I saw him, I'd tell him how he was the person who got me going to church and ultimatly lead me to be saved. I guess I waited to long and now I have to wait a little longer to say Thank you. To his children and his family, I am so sorry for you loss. Caeth was so unbelievable and I know so many are better people just for knowing him.I know I am.
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Guest Name:
Joshua Taylor
Date:
Sunday, February 20, 2005
Comments:
i miss you my friend. i thank God for every moment i shared with you. since you left us i remain mourning and broken, but i trust that finally your morning has broken. enjoy the dawn. i love you
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Guest Name:
erika-poor-young ecmom101@yahoo.com
Date:
Sunday, February 20, 2005
Comments:
Leah, Since The week I heard of the news of Caeth's death, I can't stop thinking of you and your kids. I wish I was around so I could of helped. It's so weird. I remember in high school all us girls used to pray at break that one day we could either marry Caeth or Brad Smith- He was so awesome. "The high School Catch" I'll never forget when I ran into you, you just had an awesome talk with him at Palomar. You were so happy!!! I'll never forget your beautiful smile and your nose ring..haha...next your married. I remember being so excited that it was you. I just hate the fact of all the pain you have gone through and probally still have.... I am sooo sorry!!!!!!Everyday I pray for you and you kids,I always ask around to see how you are. I'll never forget you, you and Roxanne were my first friends when I moved to O'side.:)Your kids are beautiful!!!!He will always be remembered as a Godly man!!!!!
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Guest Name:
Bryon Morales
Date:
Monday, February 7, 2005
Comments:
I can't believe it has been ten months almost a year and I still have the dream that this didn't happen. I still think of you often. I have Cat Stevens on the jukebox and I have to pause for a moment every time I hear him sing. Miss you alot. Bry
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Guest Name:
Paul Dawson
Date:
Saturday, December 25, 2004
Comments:
I just wanted to wish all Caeth's family and friends a Merry Christmas. I can only imagine how hard the holidays must be for all are related or associated with Caeth in any way. The few memories I have hanging out with Caeth are ones I will always cherish! I wish everyone a safe holiday season. Merry Chrismas Caeth.
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Guest Name:
Jenn (nycfunnygirl@hotmail.com)
Date:
Friday, December 24, 2004
Comments:
Caeth you are missed all of the time but when we are not in our regular routines of our daily lives and the warmth of the holidays are here you are missed most. Family and friends are surrounding us during this time and you are not here. I think of you everyday...sometimes smiling and sometimes sadly confused and missing. Thinking of you Caeth. Your friend, Jenn
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Guest Name:
Mike
Date:
Thursday, December 23, 2004
Comments:
Leah, you're not the only one still checking! Merry Christmas, wish you were here to say it in person!
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Guest Name:
Amber Peralez(Corson)
Date:
Thursday, December 23, 2004
Comments:
I found some old videos of us playing games and you singing! It made me so sad and I can not still believe you are gone! You were such a special person, I know that sounds so generic but there was nothing at all generic about you. I know that you are happy and at peace with Jesus, but I can't help feeling like you are in pain because of how you ended things. I wish I could find you and give a big hug and let you know how much you are loved. I miss you Caeth! I can't imagine how much pain your parents are in and your brother!Your children deserve to know you.I don't understand...
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Guest Name:
Leah Gonzales (maylie2@cox.net)
Date:
Wednesday, December 15, 2004
Comments:
I'm writing this, I guess, for anyone who still checks the website, like I do. 8 months have passed, and I still can't grasp his death. I'm starting to feel like maybe I just imagined his life, and he was never really real. But I know he was. I have enough memories to fill volumes. And I have a deep pain and sadness in my heart that I'm pretty sure will never go away. That's ok. It's reality. The kids and I are doing well. They are growing like crazy. Maylie grew an inch and a half since Halloween! She's missing teeth, and reading, and spelling. It's amazing. My life is incredibly mixed with joy and pain. If there's anyone out there who wants to be kept up to date with pictures of Maylie and Butch, drop me an email.
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Guest Name:
Marcus Putnam(ibeunashamed@yahoo.com
Date:
Tuesday, December 7, 2004
Comments:
Caeth we remember you this coming Christmas and New Year as well as everyday, you are missed greatly. 1 SAMUEL 20:18
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Guest Name:
Andreas Flatås Storli
Date:
Saturday, November 20, 2004
Comments:
Hei. Hva handler denne siden om? Kule bilder:) Liker dere Norge?
Ser dere på Hotel Cæsar?
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Guest Name:
Joseph Sanchez
Date:
Wednesday, October 27, 2004
Comments:
Caeth, Maylie, Butch, Camillo, Bethany...
It is still hard to believe Caeth is gone. I saw Jake last Saturday and we talked about Caeth and neither of us still understand- never will. I think about your parents, especially Camillo, because I was so close to my Dad and still ache missing him even though he has been gone seven years now. While my dad was dying he would always tell me that he would rather die than see my die. His words echo in my mind, "Parents should never have to bury their children."
Maylie is in kindergarten now and you were not there to see her in her beautiful first day clothes with her shy smile. I was there and watched her for you, but it can never be the same. How could you miss these moments? I see her a lot at school and wonder about her and you and Butch until my thoughts get so tangled I cant tell up from down. I would give anything to get my father back. Someday, when Maylie is older, when she understands, she will ask why you aren't there? We all love her and care for her but no one can replace a father. I dont know if Butch even remembers you anymore, but I know that he will ask questions eventually and wonder why he doesn't have a daddy like cousin Joseph.
I know how you felt, because I have been there. When my dad died and I droped out of college, moved down here to a place I never wanted to live and worked backbreaking hours supporting my Mom and sister while struggling to cope with the loss of my father. There was also a lot of confusion about God on top of all that, and also because of all that. I wanted to give up so many times. Like Macbeth life was a tale told by an idiot full of sound and fury signifying nothing.
The funny thing is I never resolved those questions or issues. I just accepted them and decided to go on with life. I still think about them sometimes and they still wake me up in the dead of night like they did you. I feel guilty for not talking to you more, because I knew and faced the same things, in many ways more severely.
In the end all I can say is I wish you were there to see Maylie. I wish you were here to see your family.
"For though from out our borne of time and place,
the flood may bear me far.
I hope to see my pilot face to face
When I have crossed the bar."
Let God be true and every man a liar. It is more than sound and fury, it is simply hidden in the mystery of an eternal God. May his grace shine upon those you leave behind.
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Guest Name:
Jenn
Date:
Sunday, October 3, 2004
Comments:
Caeth its my birthday today and I thought about the time you took me to Dick's Last Resort in San Diego for my birthday many years ago and got us in even though we weren't of legal age(must have been that charming smile) and you danced on the table for everybody. It was sooo funny! But that was just you...mr. hilarious... people loved you. I miss you! Jenn :)
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Guest Name:
a friend
Date:
Sunday, September 26, 2004
Comments:
caeth i miss you so much. wish i could have been there for you. if there is a god why didn't god help you? always thinking about you.
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Guest Name:
paige (marlin) dominguez
Date:
Saturday, August 28, 2004
Comments:
To Caeth's beautiful children,
He was heavy and clean. Strange and hilarious. He appreciated uniqueness and could create a work of art out of a simple conversation. Never will there be another. He could play a haunting rendition of 'Moonshadow.' Living, itself, was simply a subject to study. And he did study it all - To be sure, he memorized the images and depths of you both.
10 years ago, when I knew him, your dad and I became a short story. I would like to share with you just how upfront and honest he really was at 20 years old...
I just started going to Calvary, became captivated by your dad, and he and I got to know eachother. I spent some time with your uncle and grandparents and one day, Caeth asked me out.
It was a Friday. He took me shopping carting (when you hijack stray carts and jet around the parking lot until the thrill is gone, or until the manager at Marshall's threatens to call the authorities) followed by opening night of The Lion King. He had just returned from Africa and knew what 'hakuna mattata' meant before the script gave it away and that, like everything else he revealed about what he had gathered from his journeys, was magical to me. I was under his spell... wrote a song about him... so certain he was the one. Come Friday morning I received a phone call, "I just wanted you to know that I woke up this morning and thought, 'This is not the girl that makes me wake up and say 'God,I'm so grateful to be with this woman.' But pray for me and I'll pray for you." I thought it cruel and audacious at the time, but it was just Caeth. Along with being devistatingly beautiful, he was equal parts truthful. Ultimately, though, the most devistating thing he was was misunderstood.
I hope this serves you both as a small window into yourselves and where you came from and may I say as hard as it is for you to not have him here, consider yourselves priviledged to have half of him running through your veins.
Love to your family,
paige
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Guest Name:
Amber Corson (Peralez)
Date:
Friday, August 27, 2004
Comments:
Happy Birthday!!! I can't beleive you would be 30! I miss you. I miss your smile and your beautiful face. We had some of the best times. I was remembering that one year Tomara you and I hung out since your birthdays are the same and we went down to San Diego and did nothing. I know I am rambling on now, this is still so hard. I love you and can't wait to hang out on those golden streets. Happy Birthday!
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Guest Name:
A Friend
Date:
Friday, August 27, 2004
Comments:
Happy Birthday, Caeth.
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Guest Name:
Tanya Austin
Date:
Friday, August 27, 2004
Comments:
Still remembering you, Caeth. Now you will be happy forever, for all eternity. All thanks be to God.
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Guest Name:
Debby (Veralrud) Caviness
Date:
Tuesday, August 10, 2004
Comments:
Dear Beth, LaVern Johnston just told me about the loss of Caeth, your son. Although I never knew him, my heart aches for you and your family. It's not supposed to be this way, losing a child before yourself...unless God has a different plan in life for us. From the comments I've read on this web-site, it seems to me Caeth touched many lives and probably brought friends to the Lord, which all of us should be doing...being "fishers" or literally "catchers" of men (and women). Looking at the pictures of Caeth's big smile, he reminds me somewhat of your brother Cleve. What a fine looking young man he was. I hope you are at peace in your heart and learning to deal with the loss as best you can. You will be in my prayers Beth.
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Guest Name:
George Templeton
Date:
Monday, July 26, 2004
Comments:
I know it's been a long time bro. I hope you are at peace. I'll pray for your family. God Bless your family.
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Guest Name:
Dan Usher...danusher@hotmail.com
Date:
Wednesday, July 21, 2004
Comments:
Maylie and Butch,
One of my few memories of your papa was during the summer of 2002 in Oceanside. I had actually met your papa Caeth at Bible College several years prior, but he was a new student who had just arrived at school and I had just graduated so we didn’t know each other for too long. But we had a few mutual friends there: Joseph Sanchez, Jeremy Zagarella and Christian Kingery. I still kept in touch with all three and I’d occasionally meet with Joseph and Jeremy to go surfing.
During that summer a couple years ago, I drove down to Oceanside to meet with Joseph and Jeremy to go surfing by the pier. I remember that day well; the water was warm and the waves were fun, about 4-5 foot, and the sun hadn’t quite broken through the morning gloom yet. As I was standing on the sand by myself, watching the waves and trying to decide where to paddle out, Caeth came up and greeted me with a smile. He didn’t remember my name, but he did recognize me from school and we ended up talking for about 10 minutes before we both paddled out together. I remember him talking about his little girl, Maylie and his new baby boy, Butch. I remember this well, because your papa was the same age as me and he already had 2 kids. I didn’t have any kids, and still don’t have a boy or girl of my own, even as I write this. But I remember Caeth being a very proud papa because of the way he smiled when he talked about you two.
And that’s what I remember most of him that day, his smile. I remember not only Caeth’s smile on the beach before we paddled out, but also his smile out in the water and his generosity in sharing the waves. I particularly remember sitting next to Caeth out in the water as a good wave started rolling in; he could have easily taken it for himself because he was in the right position and had the bigger board. But he was kind enough to let me take it. After I rode it, and started paddling back out, I saw your papa give me a nod and a grin as he paddled over to catch a wave for himself. It was a good day for surfing, and I remember the sun was shining by time we got out of the water.
Maylie and Butch, I pray that God would bring you His mercy, comfort and peace...
Jesus said “the Helper, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in My name, He will teach you all things, and bring to your remembrance all things that I said to you. Peace I leave with you, My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.” –John 14:26, 27
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Guest Name:
Philip White cocteau2004@aol.com
Date:
Wednesday, July 21, 2004
Comments:
Caeth, when I heard of your passing immediately thoughts from Bible College came to mind. I knew you due to the fact that we were housemates for, I believe, 2 semesters. You were a very quiet, sort of at peace, type of person. You never drew attention to yourself and never had too. I know it has been too long from those days at college, but we will see each other again very soon--definitely!! You will be missed Caeth, peace be with you.
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Guest Name:
Tanya Austin
Date:
Wednesday, July 21, 2004
Comments:
Caeth, I'm sorry you had to escape. Friends, brothers and sisters in Christ, please pray for all those whose minds are constantly living in sadness. It's a hard thing to deal with all day, everyday. God is with us, in us and for us.
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Guest Name:
Zanice Stoy
Date:
Wednesday, June 9, 2004
Comments:
To Leah, Maylie and Butch: Caeth was such a cute kid, I want you to know a couple of things that I knew about him. When he was three, Camilo and Beth and Caeth came to Texas for a visit. Beth was expecting Joaquin, and we were at Aunt Sue's house. She rented the back lot to a man who had a horse, and Camilo and Caeth went out to make friends with the horse. Caeth was feeding the horse grass and without meaning to, the horse bit Caeth's thumb, and he held up his thumb to his daddy and cried, "Cabayo bit my tum". We all had to laugh, even though it was not funny to Caeth!
Another time when we had come out for a visit when Caeth was about 10 and Joaquin was about 7, and Joaquin was helping Bethany fix pancakes for breakfast. So I asked Caeth if he liked to cook also, and Caeth said, "Sure! I make a mean bowl of cereal"!
These are just some of the things that I remember about Caeth. But how I miss that young man! And how I look forward to seeing him and being with him again someday!
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Guest Name:
Teresa (Willis) Gorman.....Teresacmg@cs.com
Date:
Saturday, June 5, 2004
Comments:
I first met Camillo and Bethany at a home fellowhsip as a new Christian. They were the kindess, most loving people that really demonstrated the love of God to this weepy, little baby Christian that I was. It was at that home fellowship that we would pray for Caeth while he was in Africa. Later, when he returned, I got to know Caeth while working with him with the youth at Calvary Vista. (It was easy to see that the apple did not fall far from the tree.) He really cared about all of those kids and made it his mission to connect with them.
My heart is saddened by the news of his death (even here in Virginia we heard about it). I am so sad for Bethany and Camillo... being a parent myself and trying to understand the grief they are feeling is beyond my comprehension. I am sad for Leah, who has the job of keeping it together for their children's sake and keeping their papa's memory alive. And for his children who's memories of their dad will be so faint, they will never know first hand what a remarkable, funny, loving person he was. I am praying for all of you.
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Guest Name:
Ben Deatrick surf0924@hotmail.com
Date:
Thursday, June 3, 2004
Comments:
Dear Caeth,
I just wanted to say that you will be missed in this place very much. The time that you and Danny and I spent surfing will never leave my memory. I can honestly say that of all of the people on this rock, you are one of my favorite. I love how one always knows where they stand with you. You guide your life by a level of integrity that I am envious of and acts as a model for others. I'll always remember meeting your wife and daughter and so enjoying your family's company. I hope with all my heart that when we all leave this vail of tears that we'll all be surfing together.
One quick story that I doubt your kids have heard and I hope that your wife tells them for years to come..... The year is 2001 and Caeth and Danny and I are surfing at Black's Beach in LaJolla. It was a horrible day for surf and to make matters worse, it was in July which is right in the middle of the sting-ray breeding season. I'll cut right to the chase - I get stabbed by a sting-ray and am bleeding quite badly. Danny and Caeth help me compression wrap my foot, but that only solves half of the problem - I've got to get back to the car which is a trecherous vertical hike up a hill about 1/2 mile. I can barely stand up little lone walk and thats when I realized that Caeth is one of the rare people in this world that is so selfless he'd give you the shirt off his back. He sets his board down and starts to lift me onto his back. He was so ready to carry my fat butt all the way up the hill from Black's without so much as a second thought.
Caeth, thanks for the memories. I look forward to seeing you in the next life. In the meantime you will definitely be missed.
With Love,
Ben
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Guest Name:
Marcus Putnam
Date:
Tuesday, June 1, 2004
Comments:
Caeth, I will never forget the incredible days and nights in Oceanside, Carlsbad and San Diego sharing the GOOD NEWS. We, everyone who knew you and loves you know that yes you are in the arms of Our loving God and Savior Jesus Christ the One whom you touched the world for and had shared His precious promises with. You are missed and will never be forgotten.Your wife children and parents are in our thoughts in our hearts and prayers, as well as in HIS HANDS.. In Him, Marcus Putnam
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Guest Name:
Tanya (Hammonds) Austin
Date:
Wednesday, May 26, 2004
Comments:
I've been checking on Caeth and all of you, his family and friends, just about everyday since the creation of this wonderful website. I hope and pray that you are all getting through this time with God's love, mercy, grace and faithfulness. I will not forget Caeth or his close ones. In His Love, Tanya
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Guest Name:
Chupacabra187@earthlink.net Teddy Borja (Continued)
Date:
Thursday, May 13, 2004
Comments:
the last time I saw your face.
Initially when I heard the news of your death I accepted it and by nature, procrastinated the grieving process. The following few weeks were huge tear jerkers. Early at the in the memorial service, I selfishly was disappointed as I wasn’t able to get up and speak. But after listening and taking in what the speakers felt, expressed and said, I was overcome with happiness and joy to know you had such a positive influence and effect on so many people. I could identify with everyone whom was speaking of the time they spent with you. As the stories went on, my smile and tears grew bigger and my head nodded more in agreement. I feel so LUCKY to have crossed paths with you and HONORED I can call you a friend. There isn’t a day that goes by when I don’t think of your friendly smile and cool composure. So many things will always remind me of you. After watching the wonderfully edited “COLDPLAY” video on this site, I have been able to complete my grieving process and move forward.
-Teddy
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Guest Name:
Chupacabra187@earthlink.net TEDDY BORJA
Date:
Thursday, May 13, 2004
Comments:
Caeth,
In high school we had a class together but really never said two words toward each other. We graduated and went off to start our own lives. Three years later, I think 1999; we crossed paths at the Del Mar Fairgrounds. We talked briefly and went our separate ways. Three more years passed and in 2002 we met again at a mixer for the Rancho 10 year reunion. You asked me if I was still working as an EMT. You told me that you had been thinking of getting into fire and EMS after I saw you in Del Mar. Apparently it came up back then that I was an EMT on an ambulance. I told you that I was now a Firefighter/Paramedic and you should come out and do some ride-alongs. We exchanged numbers and later set up a day. I remember that ride along as if it were yesterday. You stayed that shift at the station and told me that was the first night in six years you had been away from Leah and the family. We ran some interesting calls and had some good conversation. Over the next few months you came up to Morro Bay and stayed with Marlisa and I. We went to SLO, Cayucos and of all Places…Oakland. The drive up to Oakland for the Oakland City Fire test was the point of origin for a strong bond of friendship. During the drive up, I began to realize on that I had never met such an interesting, honest and genuine person as you. You poured intelligence and humbleness in into every word you spoke. There was never a dull moment or lapse of conversation as we traded life stories and shared things that few if any knew. We listened to random music ranging from SOAD, Johnny Cash and Lightnin’ Rod -Hustler’s Convention to Jack Johnson and Wu-Tang Clan. We stopped off at the Romano’s Macaroni Grill in San Jose and talked some more over a late lunch. When we got back to Morro Bay we had fun at the Cayucos tavern watching Bootsie Merango perform live. Later in the months to come, you would offer up your couch several times when I was testing with So Cal Depts. A poker game here, a phone call there, you were always a fun guy to be around. You were doing so well on your career path! I was always so stoked to hear from you and I'd frequently ask you about the calls you had run. You were on the fast track to a job as a Medic. In talking with the administrators and teachers of your EMT program, you were, “the top in the class and had what it took”. I last saw you and I was able to spend half of the day with you when you came out to station 68. You told me about some funny shenanigans that happened at work and we laughed and laughed. You talked about the Torrance test and the crazy triangle thing that you had to take apart and put back together. We went over all the compartments of the engine and you wanted to know how it all worked. Your mind was like a steel trap. Retention seemed to come easy for you. You told me you’d better get going because you had hurry and meet Alex to buy a suit for the Long Beach interview. We shook hands and that was
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Guest Name:
Damasonshome@aol.com Lorraine (Nicole Templetons best friend)
Date:
Tuesday, May 11, 2004
Comments:
I want you as the family to know that I never met Caeth until now, reading all of your memories of this fine, spiritual young man has really touched my husband and I's life. I rededicated my life to Jesus recently after 3 years of being saved , my husband was just saved this year. I feel now that Ive known him forever and to currently be reading scripture everyday and going to church, living in the presence of the Lord that this really inspired me to do more not only for myself but for others as well.
Blessed are those who morn, for they shall be comforted.
Matthew 5:4
This is my comfort affliction,
For Your word has given me life?
Psalm 119:50
May God bless his Mom,Dad,and family, children,his childrens mommie and all his friends I pray in Jesus' name
Amen
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Guest Name:
Michelle DeBruyn
Date:
Tuesday, May 11, 2004
Comments:
Caeth I wish I had the words to tell you how much you are missed you touch my life and tought me so much. I miss sitting at your apartment with Joaquin and have you walk through the door with the smile on you face and tell us all the storys you had about work or personal. I miss going out for dinner or a quick drink, I miss my poker ternament budy. I miss you Caeth
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Guest Name:
Nicole Templeton (mcelroy0421@aol.com)
Date:
Tuesday, May 11, 2004
Comments:
I was the little sister of Chris and George Templeton. Caeth was friends with my older brothers. I remember Caeth when I was only 12 years old. I remember seeing Caeth do a complete turn around in his teen years. Caeth was the person to lead my brother Chris to the Lord.One morning I woke up and walked into my living room and there I saw this long haired man with a beard sleeping.I gasped so big.I truly thought Caeth was Jesus. Then I realized it was Caeth.I use to have a big crush on Caeth as a girl.I remember all the playing around he and my brothers used to do in our backyard when we all went swimming.I remember prom night when we took pictures of Caeth,Chris and Leandra.I always remember his big beautiful smile. He had the kind of personality that made you feel so special. To his Mom and Dad and Joaquin hold on to Jesus with all your might. To his wife,look to the Lord to love you and feel you with his spirit and overwhelming love. For your children lot's of prayer and comfort. You all will be in my prayers until I feel release from the Holy Spirit.
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Guest Name:
Leah Gonzales
Date:
Tuesday, May 11, 2004
Comments:
Caeth, I cannot believe you're really, really gone.
Butch is asking about you... "I want pay wif Papa. I want Papa to come over." He doesn't understand. I guess one day he'll stop asking, but it breaks my heart.
Maylie misses you too. She got a new locket. She looked through pictures and picked out two to put inside. It hangs right over her heart. She wanted you here for her birthday. You should have seen her. She's so beautiful.
I look at all the photo albums and cannot seem to grasp that your life is over. There won't ever be any more pictures added, or new memories of you. I think about your body, empty, and separate from your spirit, lying in your grave. How can it be? How can you be in this life one minute and gone the next? And where are you now? I wonder and hope, but only God knows for sure. I think about your last moments and about you dying all alone. I think about your sadness and your tears.
People keep telling me I am strong. I'm not sure what that means. Do I have a choice? You made me be strong. Maylie and Butch need me. I'm going to wake up in the morning, and I'm going to be smiling at them. I don't know how, but I believe things are gonna be ok.
Caeth, you were loved as deeply as anyone ever was, and you are missed. I can wish all day about how things should have been, but I know life is not often what you think it should be. This will never be ok. Just sad. There is nothing anyone can do to bring you back. It's so final.
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Guest Name:
Manuel (Lito) Gonzales
Date:
Thursday, May 6, 2004
Comments:
Hello. I am Manuel Gonzales, I attended the memorial services for Caeth with my grandfather Tony Gonzales "Jimmy." I never had the pleasure of meeting Caeth, nor have I ever seen him before. But....from his friends and family saying everything about Caeth at the memorial, I knew and still know Caeth was a good person. He spent all his time making others feel good around him, and just never realized how good a person he is. I wish I would of known Caeth in person. I'm sorry for our family's loss. My grandfather tells me Caeth was a cousin of mine. I hope we will all see Caeth another time.
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Guest Name:
Jackie & Bob Andress - Houston, Tx.
Date:
Wednesday, May 5, 2004
Comments:
We've been friends of Zanice ( and Gordon) for over 50 years. Have known Beth since before she was born. We never met Caeth, but knew much about him from Zanice. We are sorry to see such a talented, loved young man die so early. We pray for all the family.
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Guest Name:
Hannah (Lawrence) Meierhofer...hannahlawrence@gmx.net
Date:
Monday, May 3, 2004
Comments:
I remember hanging out around this big pillar in the highschool courtyard reading the Bible together. Caeth was such a huge blessing in my life and without his support and that of some of my other first "real" friends in the faith, I wouldn't be where I am today (8 years a missionary in Germany and a professional musician). I was such a shy, scared girl, and Caeth was also one of the ones who got me into leading worship and helped me get into fellowship with other christians. He always had amazing stories to tell of how God used him, saved him, and what He was showing him. I really looked up to him. It took a while for word to get over here to Germany. Know that we are praying for all of you in the family. My husband, Dieter and I send our love.
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Guest Name:
Date:
Monday, May 3, 2004
Comments:
LORD, MAKE ME AN INSTRUMENT OF YOUR PEACE...
WHERE THERE IS HATRED, LET ME SOW LOVE....
WHERE THERE IS INJURY, PARDON...
WHERE THERE IS DOUBT, FAITH...
WHERE THERE IS DESPAIR, HOPE...
WHERE THERE IS DARKNESS, LIGHT...
WHERE THERE IS SADNESS, JOY...
DIVINE MASTER, GRANT THAT I MAY NOT SO MUCH SEEK ...
TO BE CONSOLED, AS TO CONSOLE...
TO BE UNDERSTOOD,AS TO UNDERSTAND...
TO BE LOVED, AS TO LOVE...
FOR IT IS IN GIVING THAT WE RECEIVE...
IT IS IN PARDONING, THAT WE ARE PARDONED...
IT IS IN DYING THAT WE ARE BORN TO ETERNAL LIFE.... AMEN
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Guest Name:
Bethany Gonzales (Mom)
Date:
Friday, April 30, 2004
Comments:
Camilo and I want to thank you all for showing us who Caeth was to all of you. We were just mom and pop and his most vunerable place. We have gotten to know who he was to his friends and the world through all of you. He could spend a moment with you, cherish who you were, take a little piece of your soul and show it to you. He was that effective. One time, he was taking a pshycology course for fun, very excited about learning and debating different issues but after about 10 weeks, he was fed up with the professor teaching the course because he didn't want to debate any issues(his opinion was fact; whether about Santa Claus being real or about religion, or the books they were studying at the time, there was no discussion.) Also, he was so unfair in his class about "his" rules. Most everybody needed this class for credit but Caeth didn't(he had heard all the many complaints from the rest in the class). He was thinking about quitting the class because he just didn't respect the man's opinion anymore, despite the many credentials and books he'd written(plus he had crazy unkempt hair and chalk on his face always). One day the professor asked Caeth a question and Caeth said "Before I answer can I say something?" He proceeded in the most kind and diplomatic way to tell the man why he couldn't stay in his class anymore. He laid out all the facts that he had observed that were unfair in his teaching. The man listened quietly until Caeth was done then asked him if that was all. He thought about if he'd said all that he'd needed to. Yes, he was done. The man said then please leave my class. That was Caeth. You would almost feel complimented by his critiquing. I loved that about him. His gentleness,humility and honesty. He always wanted to effect the world in a good way. He once asked "I'm a good person, aren't I?" He wasn't mean or malicious or evil. Just extremely affected by "his many failures". We always just saw what strength he had to make it through all the trials and tribulations. I miss him.
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Guest Name:
Jamie Posnak
Date:
Friday, April 30, 2004
Comments:
Caeth is someone who simply could never be forgotten. Just upon meeting him, he had this warmth about him, inviting you in to be a true life long friend. He had this great way of lighting up the room and making everyone feel welcome and loved. I'll always remember his quirky sense of humor, when we were all laughing at him, and he so serious, would just give that sly smile. Caeth you are so loved and missed...we'll meet again. Jamie
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Guest Name:
Jenn Barron
Date:
Thursday, April 29, 2004
Comments:
Words really cannot describe how much Caeth meant to me. Caeth and I shared a special friendship that I will hold forever close to my heart. I remember the first time we talked after eight years of different journeys and it feeling like we had only been away on day trips. It was sooo good to hear his voice again. We shared so much of our life struggles, some tears, and enough laughter to make our stomachs hurt for days. I remember asking him if he could wear anything in the world and not care what anyone else thought about him what would he wear? He paused for a moment and then said a Bruce Lee karate outfit. Caeth was an amazing man who shared my same search for the meaning to life. I hope to see you again dear friend in another life and on another journey. I miss you so much and will love you always. JENN
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Guest Name:
Denise Posnak
Date:
Wednesday, April 28, 2004
Comments:
I reconnected with Caeth after 8 years in July of 2003. We found laughter in our similar thoughts and struggles and I was glad to have met him again. Caeth was a genuine man who longed for honesty and rawness - for people to be real and vulnerable. Committed to these values, he carried with him a truly beutiful smile, a kind heart, and a desire for others to have the best. He holds a high place in my heart - I will always remember him with fondness. I can only hope that he knows now how much he was truly loved.
Love and peace to you dear Caeth - I hope we meet again.
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Guest Name:
Willy Virgo
Date:
Tuesday, April 27, 2004
Comments:
I met Caeth through my daughter Jennifer, i liked him from day 1. As many others have mentioned, he had something about him that was easy to be around him. Our family loved him, he came into our lives at a time when it was so nice to have a person like Caeth around. He was helpful, happy, upbeat, kind and loved to sing and play the guitar.We lost touch when he went to Hungary, but had recently seen him last summer. I did sense something different about Caeth, but had no idea as to the pain he must have been experiencing. I am so saddened by the loss of such a wonderful, young and talented man. Caeth , you will not be forgotten, for your kind and gentle ways. You touched my family's life, and we shall miss you. Your children can be forever proud of their father. To Caeth's parents and brother, we will keep you in our prayers, God bless.... Willy
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Guest Name:
Gary Rosenberg dairidude@aol.com
Date:
Tuesday, April 27, 2004
Comments:
In the short time I knew you as my pool man, your love for our Lord and fellow man came through very clear. Your warm smile also brightened my day as I am sure it did for your many friends. It was a real blessing to know you. YOu are resting warm and comfortable now in the arms of our Savior Jesus Christ
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Guest Name:
Paul Dawson
Date:
Sunday, April 25, 2004
Comments:
I didn't know Caeth all that well, but in the short time I did know him I learned that he was a very unique and special person that most people dont meet all that often. Attending Caeth's service, I was amazed to see how many people his warm heart and kind spirit he had touched. It was extremely comforting to see how much he was loved. In the short time I did know Caeth, I became somewhat envious of the way he carried himself. He was easy to talk too, was always very kind, and really seemed to care about what people had to say. It was all those qualities that made him such an outstanding person. I wanted to express my condolences to his family, but also to remind everyone of just how lucky we all were to have Caeth in our lives! We miss you brother!
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Guest Name:
Jill Long (Stearns)
Date:
Saturday, April 24, 2004
Comments:
I met Caeth in Hungary, but I didn't really know him that well; but I did know about his ministry. The pictures tell a thousand words, his smile and his love radiates for all to see. I'm not sure what took him to that last moment, but I do know that souls were saved by his devotion and kindness and surrendering to the Father. My heart aches for his family, his friends and especially for his children and all those who are asking the question "why?" May his children know that he was a good man.
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Guest Name:
Romy (again)
Date:
Saturday, April 24, 2004
Comments:
Had to add one precious memory, and that is when we were practicing to go on a mission trip. Caeth was chosen to play Jesus in the skit, "King of Hearts." With his dark complexion and long hair, he looked the part so well. And yet, when he played the part, Caeth was also able to portray the love and compassion of Jesus. May Caeth's children know that same compassion and love of Christ in their hearts for all eternity.
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Guest Name:
Date:
Saturday, April 24, 2004
Comments:
Its very late and my heart hurts. you were such and amazing friend and person. I lookd up to to and still do. iwish I could speak to you again, and talk to you one4 more time. Thank you for always having an open heart and making me feel included. I will miss you forever
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Guest Name:
Janice (Setter) Miszczak
Date:
Friday, April 23, 2004
Comments:
I remember Caeth as a kindergarten boy who liked glue or maybe it was paste. Then a cloudy memory arises of him in middle school and he was in one of my classes and there was a big project to complete. Caeth's was superb. He always outshined the rest. Then in high school he changed. Wednesday nights after church we would hang out at Baker's Square and have coffee and dessert. There was Tuesday's answering phone for the run-a ways. Caeth's passing has woke me up spiritually. I no longer want to live half-heartedly but remember the high school days of being a Jesus freak. I want to look at my sleeping daughter a little longer and pray for my s-son who is far away. And remember His promises that are new every morning. When I saw Caeth I always asked about you JoJo and now too I am praying for you. Camileo and Bethany you also are in my prayers. On my way to work today I heard this song and it made me think of Caeth, “I am a wounded solider… I am loved, I am accepted, by the Savior of my Soul & my wounds will be made whole.” Caeth is whole again.
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Guest Name:
Margie & Cleve Stoy
Date:
Friday, April 23, 2004
Comments:
Will say something later....for now, Peace be with you Caeth.....
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Guest Name:
Darrell & Loren Dixon
Date:
Thursday, April 22, 2004
Comments:
Caeth came once a week to clean our pool and put in the chemicals. He was always friendly and dedicated. He brought the children a couple of times and we enjoyed seeing them together. Though he seemed sad on occasion, Darrell spoke words of encouragement to him and he seemed to listen intently. We would like to send a poem, AUTHOR UNKNOWN, entitled
"I'M FREE"
Don't grieve for me, for now I'm free
I'm following the path God laid for me.
I took His hand when I heard him call
I turned my back and left it all.
I could not stay another day.
To laugh, to love, to work or play.
Tasks left undone must stay that way
I found that peace at the close of day.
If my parting has left a void,
then fill it with remembered joy.
A friendship shared, a laugh, a kiss.
Ah yes, these things I too will miss.
Be not burdened with times of sorrow.
I wish you the sunshine of tomorrow.
My life's been full. I've savored much.
Good friends, good times, a loved one's touch.
Perhaps my time seemed all too brief.
Don't lengthen it now with undue grief.
Lift up your heart and share with me.
God wanted me now; He set me free.
Caeth, we will miss you. Loren & Darrell
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Guest Name:
PJ
Date:
Thursday, April 22, 2004
Comments:
Caeth, You were a great friend and a wonderful man. It was a pleasure to have you as a friend and to be able to work with you in Hungary. I know that you touched many lives. We will always love you.
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Guest Name:
Kerry Hasenbalg
Date:
Thursday, April 22, 2004
Comments:
I know that Caeth and Leah were not together as a couple at the end of his life; however, I will remember him as the godly, loving, wonderful man he was to Leah and his friends when I had the pleasure to spend time with him in Hungary. All of our lives are but a vapor - and none of us are meant to spend eternity on this earth - but I am sad that Caeth's children will not have spent more time with him. His life ended too soon - but his children should remember him as a man who did serve the Lord and God's people in Hungary. May God bless his two beautiful children and the loved ones who remain here missing him. Kerry
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Guest Name:
Meredith Johnson (gromekm@aol.com)
Date:
Wednesday, April 21, 2004
Comments:
Caeth was a wonderful friend to me in my teenage years. I will always remember his kind spirit. His intense love to sing to Jesus. I will always remember driving to the beach with him and our friends after church on Wednesday night's singing Jesus songs! My prayers go out to his family and 2 beautiful children.
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Guest Name:
Elizabeth Kingery
Date:
Wednesday, April 21, 2004
Comments:
Visiting your grave last weekend Caeth was extremely painful because we weren’t ready to let you go, but we had to anyway. However, the relentless heartache of missing you is nothing compared to the pain you must have suffered. I know that the fierce battle within you was the reason why you could deeply hurt others and yet also why you were so amazingly considerate of others as well – an example being the time you sprinted down a street in Hungary after a car that had something left on top of it. Everyone agrees that you led a true life: You not only revealed that giving to others is such a beautiful thing but you also proved that sin is the cause of pain, and that it only deceives and destroys. Your death has given me the precious motivation to do things like appreciate my husband, to look my children in the eye when they speak, to return phone calls and e-mails promptly, to be affectionate and not care if others think less of me, to be passionate in prayer, to sacrifice my own dreams so that someone else can be happy, and to loosen my grip on the futilities of this world and instead cling to Jesus Christ, my savior from the problem of life and my explicit happiness. I am ashamed that it would take your death to humble me; nevertheless, your life and the passing of it served a noble purpose in many lives. I am thankful over and over for you Caeth and I can’t help but eternally love you.
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Guest Name:
Bryon Morales
Date:
Wednesday, April 21, 2004
Comments:
Well I have been trying to think of a great memory of Caeth and I. The only problem is their was just too many too even express in words. I will never forget your love and our good times. I will also make sure that maylie and butch know who their papa was. I love you and will miss you.
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Guest Name:
Nathan Pearson pears009@hotmail.com
Date:
Tuesday, April 20, 2004
Comments:
I didn't hear about Caeths passing until the morning of the memoreal service. My heart broke when I heard the news, and I kept thinking that there must have been some mistake. Unfortunatly I dont think Caeth ever relized how much that he meant to me and how honored I was to be able to hang out with him and call him my friend. As I write this I can't stop thinking about the memories that I shared with not only Caeth, but Joquine, Jake Medina, John Moresh, Josh Carson, Lee Hodges etc...Skateboarding at that abandoned supermarket in Vista, going to downtown San Diego, Skateboarding in La Jolla, Surfing and just hangging out. As most of us moved on and lost touch, Caeth seemed to make it a point to keep in contact. I'll still remember that phone call out of the blue when Caeth called me after he had returned from Hungary and asked me to come over to his and Leahs apartment in Oceanside, so that he could catch up with me, Caeth you will never know how much that meant to me. The last time I saw you was at my Aunts house 5 months ago and you said that we need to hang out, unfortunatly we never did and I will forever regreat that. I feel honored to have known you, and KNOW I will seee you again
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Guest Name:
Molly Gonzales, Robert A. Gonzales (Aunt & Uncle in Colorado)
Date:
Tuesday, April 20, 2004
Comments:
Caeth: You will be missed. You were so quiet and intense in your love for God.
You have touched us and everyone you ever met.We remember you as a little boy always smiling and so happy when you got a baby brother, Joaquin. Your eyes and your smile are those of your father, Camilo in your pictures. I wonder if you knew how many people loved you.I did not know you could ever be depressed for every time we saw you, you were so real, so alive, so caring.Your music was a blessing for anyone listening to you. May God Our Father, hold you in his arms forever.
Love, Aunt Molly & Uncle Bob
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Guest Name:
sonny & Ginny Crouse @sonnycrouse@yahoo.com
Date:
Tuesday, April 20, 2004
Comments:
Beth Camilo & family.
Our prayers are with you at this sad time.
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Guest Name:
Ramae Ogilvie
Date:
Tuesday, April 20, 2004
Comments:
I am deeply saddened by the premature loss of Caeth and I grieve with all those who knew and loved him. Camilo, Bethany, Joaquin and Caeth, you came into my life in the late 80’s through marriage. I instantly had an extended family that I couldn’t be more proud of or thankful for. I feel honored to call you family. As most everyone has mentioned, I too immediately saw the uniqueness of Caeth and felt the unavoidable attraction toward him. Caeth, I remember always having such pride in telling people about you and launching into an extended explanation of your name and the origin of it – I loved that. I would tell them about the admiration I had for your courage and desire to set off around the world to improve the lives of others. If I only had an ounce of your courage... Caeth, as I sat there on Saturday and listened to all those who spoke so highly of you and of the lives you’ve impacted and touched in your short but ever so meaningful life, I wished I had told you sooner that you have left a mark on my life as well. You are loved and will be missed dearly. Rest in peace.
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Guest Name:
Michael Hernandez
Date:
Tuesday, April 20, 2004
Comments:
Caeth, I'm thankful I got to know you when we lived together in Uganda. That was a time in my life that I'll never forget and having you there made it even more fun. I'll never forget those crazy faces you used to make and all those Cat Stevens songs you loved to play on your guitar. There are lots of good memories. You will be remembered. Peace.
Mike
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Guest Name:
Brian Luwis
Date:
Tuesday, April 20, 2004
Comments:
We are praying for your family. God speed, Brian
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Guest Name:
camilo j gonzales (caeth new me as pop)
Date:
Tuesday, April 20, 2004
Comments:
To those of you who new caeth,there,s not anything I can tell you that you
don,t already know.When you talked with him you got all of him.I know his death
was a shock to many,and maybe not to other,s.Caeth was so smart & capable of
such rational & logical thought in so many area,s outside himself,but when it
came to self examination of himself,He always kept the crap & discarded the
gold.In some ways this served to alway,s be improving himself and to be able
to help other,s to see themselves more clearly.I know caeth would want his life and death,to help anyone who suffers silently with depression and suicidal proclivity,s
to seek proffesional help.
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Guest Name:
Jake Medina
Date:
Monday, April 19, 2004
Comments:
Caeth you were a great friend, a TRUE friend. I will always remember and miss you. I can still remember the excitment I felt when I heard you were moving back home from Hungary, little did i know the deep friendship that would emerge. You & Leah adopted me into your little family & showed me love. All the memories of going to concerts, surfing, kick boxing, & working for Randy (I doubt any three guys had so much fun digging trenches & pouring concrete as you, Jon, & I). I'll remember the drives to sid's to get tatoos & countless hours just hanging out @ your apartment. Watching UFC fights will never be the same & it didn't matter how much I out weighed you, you always found a way to beat me in wrestling. You taught me that friends don't need to knock or ask to open the frig to get a drink. I could fill volumes with the great memories I have. God used you so much in this world & I know he will use you in your death. My only regret is that I didn't get to spend more time with you these past two years. I hope that I can invest as much love into May & Butch as you did in mine, they will know who their father was. A loving, generous, hard working, and passionate man. I love you and will always miss you.
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Guest Name:
Karen Damron/Vogel
Date:
Monday, April 19, 2004
Comments:
I know Caeth from the high school fellowship at Calvary Chapel. Those were great times. We had a tight knit group that was on fire for Jesus.There are so many memories. I remember one time we were hanging out at a restaurant after church and Caeth noticed somebody across the room that he recognized. He looked at me and said, "See that girl over there, that's somebody I used to know." I looked at him puzzledd and he just smirked. That memory came back to me today and I just smirked to myself because I guess I'd be what Caeth would consider somebody he used to know. Although I haven't seen him for a long time his friendship left a lasting impression. I will always remember Caeth as a brilliant, unique individual. I'm saddened to hear of the recent turmoil he was experiencing and my heart goes out to his family. I look forward to seeing you Caeth on the other side. Your friend, Karen
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Guest Name:
Romy Godding
Date:
Monday, April 19, 2004
Comments:
What Satan intended for evil, our God will bring about good: for Caeth's children, Maylie and Butch, and for Camilo, Bethany, and Juaquin. Cling to Jesus, for He is your life (Deut. 30:20)! I will miss Caeth greatly.
In Christ, Romy (nrgodding@compuserve.com)
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Guest Name:
C.G. (gonzalesc@ctt.com)
Date:
Monday, April 19, 2004
Comments:
To my dearest Mom, Dad and Joaquin, Some things I'd like to say, but first of all to let you know that I arrived OK. I'm writing this from heaven, where I dwell with God above, where there are no more tears or sadness, just eternal love. Please don't be unhappy just because I'm out of sight, remember...that I'm with you each morning, noon, and night. The day I had to leave you, when my life on earth was through, God picked me up and hugged me and He said, " I welcome you." "Its good to have you back again, you were missed while you were gone, as for your friends and family, well, they'll be here later on." "I need you here so badly as part of my big plan, there's so much that we have to do to help mortal man." Then God gave me a list of things he wished for me to do, and foremost on that list of mine is to watch and care for you. I will be beside you every day, week, and year and when you're sad I'm standing there to wipe away the tears. When you think of my life on earth and all those loving years, beacuse your only human they are bound to bring you tears, but do not be afraid to cry it does relieve the pain, remember there would be no flowers unless there is some rain. I wish that I could tell you of all that God has planned, but if you were to tell you, you would'nt understand, one thing is for certain though my life on earth is over I am closer to you now than I ever was before and to my very many friends, Tust God knows what is best. I'm still not far away from i'm just above the crest. There may be rocky roads ahead of you and may hills to climb but together we can do it taking one day at a time. It has always been my philosophy and I'd like for you too, that is to give unto the world so the world will give to you. If you can help somebody who's in sorrow or in pain then you can say to God at night my day was not in vain and now I am contented that my life, it was worthwhile knowing as I passed along the way I made somebody smile, so if you meet somebody who is down and feeling low just lend a hand to pick him up as on your way you go. When you are walking down the street and you've got me on your mind, I'm walking in your footsteps only half a step behind and when you feel that gentle breeze or wind upon your face that's me giving you a great big hug or just a soft embrace and when it's time for you to go from that body to be free, remember, you're not going away you're coming here to me, I will always love you from that land way up above we'll be in touch again real soon PS God sends his love
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Guest Name:
Michael and Colleen Brown
Date:
Monday, April 19, 2004
Comments:
Dear Sweet Caeth, Your smile and your kind and gentle spirit is what we see. Your friendship and love to Joshua is a vivid memory and you will be remembered in our family's hearts forever. We'll meet you at the gate Dear One.
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Guest Name:
Joseph Sanchez
Date:
Monday, April 19, 2004
Comments:
Dear Maylie and Butch 4/17/04
I was just thinking about how your Dad and me would sit out on the steps at church and just watch the surf and enjoy the moment. We didn't talk much, but neither of us wanted to really. We'd just sit there and enjoy the wind, sand, sea, and sky. But I do remember one of the talks we had. We were talking about kids and how much fun they were. It was a few months before Butch was born, and I remember asking him how he felt about it.
You see, I was a few months older than your Dad, but he had been a daddy for almost four years already. I was a little nervous about the responsibility of raising kids and how difficult it is. Caeth was very simple and straightforward about it. Actually he kind of brushed the question off, just saying that God would provide when the time came. Then we started talking about Butch and how fun it was going to be to have
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Guest Name:
Rick Campbell
Date:
Monday, April 19, 2004
Comments:
I remember surfing and bodyboarding with Caeth, Jaoquin, and Garth. We went on a weekend surf trip to La Fonda beach in Baja. I will always think of him when I surf Wisconsin St. in Oceanside. Caeth came across as very gentle, highly introspective, but also very tough. I always admired his quiet demeanor. He was cool as hell. Caeth, I deeply respect the way you stayed true to yourself in your spiritual journey. I know you are finally at peace.
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Guest Name:
Matt Juarez
Date:
Monday, April 19, 2004
Comments:
Was shocked to hear of Caeth's death today from my wife Rachael. I knew Caeth from Calwary Chapel Vista and profoundly remember how sold out he was for Christ. He had long hair and a beard and was truly the Jesus freak we all longed to be. He was very soft spoken and even reminded me of what Jesus would have looked/been like. That was over 12 years ago and seeing the pictures of his family today is truly a tragedy. I am sure he will be missed greatly. May God give Peace to his immediate friends and family.
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Guest Name:
Rachael (Brown) Juarez
Date:
Monday, April 19, 2004
Comments:
My heart is broken for the pain that Caeth must have felt. My heart is also broken for you, his family and close friends. My brother Joshua Brown was a very close friend to Caeth and I can still see him walking in our home with his kind and beautiful eyes. I saw Jesus in those eyes and I am forever greatful to Caeth for showing me glimpses of my heavenly Father. You are so missed Caeth, even here in Central Oregon. We will see you soon, Rachael Juarez
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Guest Name:
Jacob Brown
Date:
Monday, April 19, 2004
Comments:
It has been a long time since I have seen Caeth. As I opened this website and saw his pictures, I was reminded of what a great person he truely was. You can't look at his happy face and not feel good.
Caeth, you will truely be missed.
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Guest Name:
Tanya (Hammonds) Austin -- tanyamh@earthlink.net
Date:
Monday, April 19, 2004
Comments:
I went to middle and high school, and to church with Caeth. I saw his transformation after God gave Caeth His Spirit. Caeth has a gentle soul. The last time I saw Caeth was at our 10 year High School Reunion. I was able to sit with Caeth and Leah for a while to catch up on what was going on in our lives. I enjoyed that time very much. At the reunion, a photographer gathered everyone to take a group picture. At the time, Caeth and I had been in the back of the group talking. I remember thinking "Wait, what about the group picture. We should be in this." But looking back now, I'm glad I wasn't in the picture because I was in the back talking with Caeth. It's not much, but that is a neat little memory that I will not forget. I'm so glad to have the opportunity to be at his memorial. Although I did have some knowledge of Caeth's deep sadness, I was still confused about his death. A few of you answered some of my questions and I wanted to thank you for that. Leah, you are beautiful and strong. God is with you, Maylie and Butch, and will fill you all with love. He will bless and protect you. Bethany, Camilo, and Joaquin, God is with you and will remind you of His loving and perfect plan. I will never forget Caeth. In His Love. T
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Guest Name:
Mike Brown
Date:
Sunday, April 18, 2004
Comments:
This just breaks my heart. I will miss you my friend.
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Guest Name:
Robert & Cheryl Posadas (Calvary Chapel Lynchburg, VA.)
Date:
Sunday, April 18, 2004
Comments:
It was an honor to serve alongside caeth at Calvary Vista. In him I saw,expressed out through service, what it meant to be on-fire for God. Caeth was a great example of a man with a gentle spirit, always having an exhorting word for everyone. Caeth will be deeply missed but the impact he had on us as to what it means to be a Christian friend will be in us for the rest of our lives.
Thank's Caeth...
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Guest Name:
Leandra Nunez
Date:
Sunday, April 18, 2004
Comments:
I can still remember the night I asked Jesus into my heart. I was a senior in high school. The pastors of Calvary Chapel Vista showed me where the high school fellowship was. I walked in and saw an old junior high friend, Caeth Gonzalez. From that night on I got to know and love an amazing friend. For the next year it was You, Me, Josh, Damian, Chris and George all loving and serving Jesus!!! Caeth, you were sold out for Jesus! God used you in an amazing way to touch many lives. I'm confident you are in your mansion. There is no more pain or tears. I too have wandered from the truth and question my purpose. But this morning as I heard of your death I was flooded with memories of our love for Jesus! I desire that love again. Even if you didn't believe in the end He is still using you for His purpose. Thank you God for allowing me to know such a gentle spirit! Malachi 3:16
Until our paths cross again your friend, Leandra
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Guest Name:
Elvira Arriaga, Thomas Arriaga, and Dorinda Arriaga
Date:
Sunday, April 18, 2004
Comments:
Our deepest Sympathies on the loss of a Beautiful person. You will always be in our hearts and minds. Look forward to seeing you in paradise. God bless your spirit, and your family.
Love,
Arriaga Family
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Guest Name:
Ann, Carly, & Neven Durutovic
Date:
Sunday, April 18, 2004
Comments:
We are so thankful that God put you in our lives for the short three years that we knew you. You touch the heart of every person you met. You were an angel that was sent here to teach each and everyone of us how special and how strong we were; it is unfortunate that that was not a lesson that you could have taught to yourself. You were a exquisite man, and I will forever remember you.
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Guest Name:
Xavier Peralez
Date:
Sunday, April 18, 2004
Comments:
My regret,is that we never connected after we moved back. I loved you then and I love you now.I know you are in the loving arms of our Lord Jesus Christ and my hope is to reunite with you on that day.Amber and I will continue to pray for your family and not allow time to keep us apart from them.We will ensure that Maylie and Butch will remember you as the the wonderful father, who loved the Lord with all his heart and gave himself for his children. Caeth you were made perfect in the eyes of our Lord and I know that he always saw you as nothing less, He made you beutiful in every way. Soon we will meet up again and this time.....time or anything else will keep us apart.
With all or love and hope in Jesus Christ,
Xavier,Amber and Michayla Peralez
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Guest Name:
Kimberley Arriaga Lopez
Date:
Saturday, April 17, 2004
Comments:
My dear God Loving, Cousin. From the time that we were tots I loved you like a brother. Although we were far apart, the times we got together were memorable. You were always the quiet one, while Joaquin was the ham. You are blessed to have had A Family and a lot of friends more than many other people, but I guess that's because you were that one good friend everyone is always looking for. You will without a doubt be forever missed by all of us. You lived, you laughed, you learned, you loved. For whatever reason you might have had........although we are battling to find an understanding........You are in the arms of Our Heavenly Father burden FREE.
Save a spot for me in Heaven I Love You
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Guest Name:
Jennifer Sparks/Hayden
Date:
Saturday, April 17, 2004
Comments:
Knowing Caeth as a young guy, totally sold out. He had that singleness of focus.
It was fun being in the youth group at Calvary Vista at the same time. We were all such a family. Caeth loved to worship! Though he will be greatly missed, I am confident that he is worshipping in the Throne Room in absolute FREEDOM!!!
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Guest Name:
Mike Carter
Date:
Saturday, April 17, 2004
Comments:
Gonna miss you. What else can I say!!!
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Guest Name:
Pilar King
Date:
Saturday, April 17, 2004
Comments:
I was shocked and saddened to hear about Caeth from my daughter Tomara (Stone) Baran. Tomara and Caeth were high school friends and we enjoyed having him at our house. I remember once we needed yardwork done and Tomara suggested that Caeth could do it, so he brought his brother over and they did that for us. When he came back from Africa he told us stories of the months he spent there, he was a very interesting young man. The last time I recall seeing him was at the Rancho Buena Vista graduation. I always thought he had a beautiful smile.
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Guest Name:
Robert W. Gonzales
Date:
Saturday, April 17, 2004
Comments:
Psalm 34:18 (NIV)
"The Lord is closed to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit" The Psalmist is not unrealistic. The good person must and does face abundant adversities, but the Lord guards them and they are never forgotten!
Rest in Peace Caeth!
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Guest Name:
Justin Stellman - namllets@yahoo.com
Date:
Saturday, April 17, 2004
Comments:
Caeth, I just wanted to let you know that you are/were loved more than you can ever know. I'll never forget your smile and more-so that laugh of yours that was so unique. Or I'll never forget the time when you called me out of the blue on a Friday night to hang out. Just because you said you hadn't seen me in a while. I happened to be fixing my car and you drove all the way up to my house with Juaquin to help me put in my altinator, which I was having a hard time with. I'm sure there were a ton of other fun things you could have done on a Friday night but that's the type of person you were.
I'll never forget how you were always so patient explaining poker games to all of us. Those were amazing times Caeth. I just wished you could have seen yourself as your friends and family saw you because you are unique and irreplacable. Thank you for being in our lives. We love you...
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